Oh My Wit

22, 000 Words

2007-09-23T21:39:00.000+10:00

+ One.

That's my longest fic so far. Fun!

In other news, Keira Knightley was in a Top 100 for things most 'overrated' in the US. Funny. Alongside Becks and Posh. *shrug*

I like the new Atonement poster, though. Since it didn't pick up anything over Cate Blanchett at the Venice Film Festival, I'm assuming no Oscars again, but maybe a nomination?

Professional Groupie

2007-09-18T16:58:00.001+10:00

Turns out past uncomfirmed rumours have been debunked!

Jim Broadbent is going to play Slughorn in HP6. Obviously, I'll be waiting until more sources confirm this, but it seems pretty certain now. That particular articles has a picture of Broadbent, but not in Slughorn's bald and walrus-moustached glory.

I think that's pretty exciting, though. Remembering Moulin Rouge, I think Broadbent can do 'slighty eccentric and pompous' quite well. Well, I'm waiting until I see some sneaky screen shots of the bushy moustache to rival Vernon Dursley's, but since they're only starting filming in the next week or something, that'll be months away.

They didn't keep Umbridge's look that secret, though. I guess it'd be pretty impossible not to promote new teachers, especially in the trailer.. hm..

I've just finished re-reading the 7th book, and I'm still in but edging slightly away from my traumatic denial of my favourite character's death. I seem to have developed somewhat of a similar affliction to Tia - that I pick a favourite character and then they die. *cries over Death Note*

However, I shall enjoy my refreshed DH evening and maybe have my own coffee, not partaking in the Ladies' Coffee and Cake Night on tonight. Apparently, mothers like to let their hair down when relative children are in sight.

And my brother has disappeared for two days now - not seriously a missing person, of course. But Dad and I have enjoyed our day off together and .. not together (me cooping myself up in the expanse of the living room and not eating lunch until finishing reading). ^_^;

More Rumours of Rumours

2007-09-13T19:45:00.000+10:00

Aside from mentions of cast members for HP6 (particularly the speculation of Bob Hoskins as Slughorn), there's a comparison of Harry Potter and James Bond here.

I love how "Daniel Radcliffe is rumoured to want to play the role of James Bond as a teenager in a planned film based on the Young Bond series of books written by The Fast Show's Charlie Higson."

I love it! Equus on Broadway is still not quite confirmed, but I don't think even IMDB would have registered this one. Although, I'm not obsessed enough to click on that metaphorical link.

At the moment I have all the tiredness of a migraine, but I can't tell if I'm about to get one (I'm furiously drinking water) or if it's the strange after-effects of bad uni coffee. I think I should start an actual Coffee Club and tour around Newtown, etc and visit various cafes of our choosing and evaluate them on personal criteria for which place and maker we think to be best.

Yes, there's the tick for coffee mentioning in this post.

I'm going through a sudden liking for Billy Talent, particularly 'Nothing to Lose'. I think this is because I actually properly listened to/understood the lyrics the other night. Hm.

Anyway, fingers crossed for my job interview tomorrow (Oh, the dream! Shelving books - me?!) and then I will have to make a phone call to Jenny. It is very much 'make a call'. Hopefully the decision will be win-win, not just for me.

Luf! Very sleepy expression of luf though. -^^-

Respect those who condemn you?

2007-09-09T20:49:00.000+10:00

Check out a cool excerpt of an interview with Sir Ian McKellen here.

Dinner with mother was nice; I still feel very full even though I didn't have dessert. A mocha was enough for me - and it was a special occasion, even though it was my third coffee of the day and just after my 7.30 curfew.

Which bands am I looking forward to seeing at Black Stump this year? Paradyme, the Sundance Kids, Compliments of Gus.. etc etc... Apparently Michael is very 'over' the Amazing Joel Hockey Movement, but the songs still make me laugh as though I haven't heard them before, even though I sing along to every word. But what I really love about Stump is the God-feeding that comes from the teaching and workshops that I go to with low expectations but come out of feeling very changed and blessed. It's great - so many people coming this year that I know who've never been before!

Rumours of Rumours

2007-09-09T14:32:00.000+10:00

The next rumour in a line of fabulous fan-derived suggestions: Daniel Radcliffe as the next Dr. Who.

http://www.people.co.uk/news/tm_headline=potter-star-radcliffe-is-favourite-as-dr-who&method=full&objectid=19758329&siteid=93463-name_page.html

I think this nearly beats the Rumour of a Rumour that Joss Whedon would be doing X-Men 4.

And I made a latte, fyi. I guess I tripped out on macchiatos yesterday. But all is good; I will finish our Pirate assignment for my Anime & Manga class, and maybe play a bit more outlawed Civ II. ^_^

Poetry is not only in words

2007-09-09T14:03:00.000+10:00

What have I done?

*Posted a new chapter of my fic
*Read lots of lovely reviews for said fic
*Excitedly read and reviewed The Marriage Stone
*Grumble about a particular friend that I shouldn't bother grumbling about
*Started so many games of Civ II and not gotten past 200 BC I should be outlawed
*Procrastinated on memorising a map of the world

I'm going to go and make a coffee. Yes, I've already received the 'tick' of mentioning coffee for this post. Ah, decisions! What shall I make? I had International Roast this morning.. I'm pretty sure it wasn't Bushells, which, imho, is even worse. I have an affectionate love of the badness of International Roast, but that doesn't extend to Bushells. And I have a pretty dislike of Nescafe. I shudder and my eyes narrow whenever I see the label on Eddy's work shirt.

But - I'm not Queen of the universe (not quite yet), although I am going to a meeting later this afternoon.

"Yes. Yes, mum, you do have to wear something."

Stephen and I are taking our mother dearest to a pre-Birthday Birthday dinner. Well, I'm enjoying a good meal out on someone else's tab.

On the other side, I may be soon working at a bookstore!!! My dream job, practically. Back in the day, I used to want to work at Borders, but since I've stopped stalking people there, it no longer has much of an attraction for me. However, Aiden has regrown a bit of a beard! Err, I mean... I don't stalk people that don't know who I am...

Seriously though: Piracy funds terrorism.

*wink*

Who Killed My Crema?

2007-09-08T11:08:00.000+10:00

It's so difficult to make a macchiato without making a more milky coffee first.

That's my story.

Boo. The end. Stephen is looking over my shoulder and I'm working on piratey pirate names. Stephen thinks I should have finished the story as it was and not said anything else of this sort.

Ta ta.

My, My

2007-09-02T18:57:00.000+10:00

Yes, the times are a-changin'.

A lot has happened! My most precious item is now my espresso machine, I have written more of each of my stories, and lately I have been having very strange dreams, often waking up at 2am with demons or people dying. Eek.

But the dreams where I wake up/am woken up at 7 or 8 am are deliciously fun-filled! Friends and fictional characters making their appearances and going on lots of adventures. I've heard that Optimal Dreaming Time is from 4-7am, so I don't like waking up at 2am.. I blame it on the decaf...

As you may see, I am experimenting with a new template layout. I hope to personalise it and maybe add a picture. *shrug* I'm not really caring at the moment.

Quick-Stix Review: Dragon Ball Z Episodes 1-3

I don't think I'd ever seen these early episodes before. Like with Dragon Ball, I think the-powers-that-be decided these eps were too boring to put on tv.. well, you might remember them and I may be wrong. However, I am now experiencing them in good quality, non-American dub. Yes! Nihongo glory! Well, it's pretty fun, and I can't wait for Vegeta's entrance, him being one of my first (anime, fictional character) loves. Heheh.. *sigh*

^_^

As with Beyblade, which I have now decided it's pointless to try and hide I like it, DBZ was one of my childhood loves, and an early experience of anime. A shame, really, but all the anime I'd known previously was Pokemon, which of course we won't really count. I was also more tomboyish when I was a child than I am now, but I remember P.J. Boyle exclaiming in surprise when I said I like/watched Pokemon. Ahh, those were the days.

Anyway, anyway, anyway... I shall be enjoying myself with Kath and Kim, and maybe even my second coffee for the day (unless I pass by my 7.30 curfew, in which case it will probably be one of those shifty dream-inducing decafs).

I am also rereading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.. Hey, at least the younger kids think I'm cool! Well, I probably know and love HP better than them, but it's been 10 years since I started reading the books.. that's half my life. Those kids probably weren't able to read when I was absorbing 1-through-3. Ahh well, I shall leave it here, and maybe people will occasionally check this page and see I'm posting again.

If you do, please comment! It will be a highlight of my day to be able to ridicule you in my next post. IE shower you with love for giving me attention *wink*

Luf,

Lenny ^_^

My Grandmother Is Racist

2006-12-14T13:44:00.000+11:00

The summer cicadas outside sound like a vortex toy being thrown repeatedly through the air.

Yeech.

I've finally uploaded photos for the Big Catch-up Post, which I will probably do in parts.

I've been cooking in the last few months. For example, lots of chocolate-y goodness for a cake stall (and no I did not happen to fall in love while serving behind the table at this 'Bake Sale'), and more recently learning how to whip up some delicious cheese and bacon puffs. Apparently, they were fantastic (according to the middle aged and beyond at a church Christmas Party).

However - Stephen and I leave the parents alone for one weekend and look what happens.

Yes, they burnt the kitchen down. It's still being worked on now - we've had things replaced but there's slightly more cleaning to do. And that was months ago.

Yesterday was a busy day. In the morning Mumsy and I went shopping for some presents for people, and then took my Gran out for a lunch - fish and chips. Delicious.

My Gran is great, there's Ohye in every part of her. By 'Ohye' I mean 'stubbornness', which she gained from her husband and was thus passed down to my father. Stephen's also got some of this Ohye Stubborness, however I believe I luckily missed out on the 'never give up' attitude of fiddling with things that are infinitely broken.

We talked about many things, such as how her friends and sister are going, and vandalism in the area, knitting for Wrapped With Love and her pompously annoying neighbour.

My Grandmother grew up in the Depression, and underwent some very tough times. Similar to Fiona's grandmother, my gran is of the generation that think the Japs are evil, and that the White Australia Policy was probably a good idea. We were discussing Johnny Howard and english as part of a test for Australian Citizenship, and talking to my similar-aged friends at a party that night, I realised how much difference time can make. Whereas Gran reckons that people should know english before coming to Australia, or at least being willing to learn, people my age would think that it's a somewhat elitist policy that removes from Australia whatever it is that makes it Australia. I've also heard it called 'double standard', and from hearing explanations of both points of view, it can be sensible either way. My gran was saying that 'this multiculturalism is a very difficult thing', with Muslim people being particularly 'foreign' and so different.

I was telling her that less than half my grade at school was white, and she was quite shocked. She guessed that most of them were Chinese, and I admitted that often parents really push their kids to do well at school (and thus get into a selective school), because they see education as really important - maybe something they were never able to have. But I said that there were other ethnic backgrounds, such as Indian, and plenty of people are second or third generation. My Gran asked if the Indians do as well as the Chinese or white kids, and remarked that it's a lot easier for Chinese people to integrate (remember the government's policy of 'Assimilation'? Well, of course you don't - we weren't born), for some reason. But people from predominantly Islam countries are so 'alien' and 'foreign' that entire streets have signs in their own language, with no English, and aren't willing to be part of society. Rather, she suggested, they stick in their own groups and then we get things like racial tension and terrorism.

I was shocked at what she was saying - at Speech Day (presentation day) on Monday, our school Principal talked about how our school is representative of how multiculturalism is supposed to work - everyone in harmony and equality. When saying to my Gran about if the 'Indians do as well', I just said to my Gran, 'We're all the same'. I realised after I said it that my grandmother and I come from such different worlds. It's my natural way of thinking, that you're Australian if you live here and you can speak some english, and joke about yourself and pay out the Prime Minister.

People of my granparents' generation were brought up thinking differently. It's difficult to determine if being conservative is wrong. (See John Heard's article) Although, it appears quite clearly to me that my grandmother is racist. I think it's a bit late to try and change her perspective. She's not about to go and rally against anything, or argue that non-whites should be shipped away, but at the polls, you can probably guess which policy she would vote for.

I don't mean for this little rant to be just about white eurocentric racism either.

As long as there is an 'Us' and 'Them' view of cultures and racial identity, We (collective Australia) will not be able to entirely 'succeed' in creating and perpetuating a multicultural society.

Bunnymen and Mansuits

2006-11-30T23:37:00.000+11:00

Do you love yourself?

It's easy not to like yourself. But I wonder how much we take care of ourselves. I get really annoyed when people heavily put themselves down. But there's the other end of the spectrum in which people like others liking them, and who they are doesn't matter. Perhaps it's super-ego rather than super-selfless. I think I'm somewhere inbetween. Maybe 'super-selfish'?

Heh. So that's what I've been discovering lately. On Tuesday, at a Church Council meeting, I'm going to give my testimony of faith. It's something I've never officially done before - it's how I live my life and talk about my experiences - but this is about sharing with others (all of them at least a decade or several older than me) and going back to base about foundations. It'll be good.

Today Stephen and I watched Donnie Darko again. You pick up something new every time. I actually visited the website, which was interesting. Thus bunnies, 80s music (ever heard lots of Echo and the Bunnymen?) and questions of why we wear human-suits - what's our real selves?

Steve and I have begun to casually analyse films. This has sprouted from Stargate commentaries and just generally observing how movies are made. After coffee today (ooh - I only had one!.. I guess that balances out yesterday, which we won't talk about -.-), my brain started working faster as it usually does, and came to many great ideas.. scene juxtaposition of the different theatres (Sparkle Motion and movies at Aero), placebos=water=capacity for time travel. All that goodness. It's easy to get in depth with Donnie Darko and not feel like you're imposing meaning that wasn't already there (such as studying the subject of school 'english' imparts).

Oh - anyone have ideas of Donnie using telekenisis (sp.?) or mind control? Shteve reckoned he positioned the plane/plane part in the right position... I couldn't think of anything reasonable for mind control, although other powers in the list (eg. fire, water) fitted.

I was searching for Initial D downloads primarily for Stephen, and ended up using over 20% of our internet in one day.. getting Trigun (again, for my brother, so I feel it's somewhat less selfish and I can justify it), some Zoids Genesis, and what is rapidly becoming a new obsession: Ouran High School Host Club. So much fun! Squee!

I haven't been sleeping well lately, and Steve has just come home from a late shift at work, so it's to bed with me!

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Where are you needed most?

Sweet December Rain

2006-11-22T15:28:00.000+11:00

I'm drinking a home made caramelattefrappammmcho. Why the 'mmm'? Because it's gooood.

I don't deal well with heat. I'm a cold fish - I wore 6 layers in the summer of '05. People thought I was crazy, but I was cold. However, that was because of flooding winds, it's 38 degrees and it gives me headaches. I take drugs, cold showers, and nothing works. I have coffee before 7.30 and I stay up late.. Lovely.

As for the Year 12 Formal, which was on Friday, dear Mumsy took a couple of photos, and then other people took photos at Alyssa's house (where many parents were waiting for the Maxi Taxi to take people in to the city), and then at the formal itself. It was a good night, it was really nice. The food (3 course) was good, and I was happy with my chicken (the other option was steak. eww.. protein red meat...). We had a couple of allergy people on our table, and it was funny how they had to tell the waiter each time - "I have allergies, can I eat this?". The waiter never seemed to remember. Unfortunately, there was no other dessert option and peanut death Julia couldn't eat anything. So I thought the formal committee did a really good job organising, and it was a nice night. From my perspective (read: INTJ personality), it went a little downhill after the dinner. This is because it turned into a dance party. And I don't dance. I'm sure I could if I tried, (never wanting to put myself down) but I sincerely don't want to. I made up an excuse not to go to a party because it was a dancing night. So I sat down with Bryan and Tris most of the night (Gregor and I worked out that half of YBS was there - it was great!), and told Bryan that he couldn't drive home because he was sick and very very tired. People made me get up onto the dance floor a couple of times - grr to Kris for using luf against me - but I just sort of stood there awkwardly. *shrugs* I can't help it. You know, these boots are made for walking, but Lenny just won't dance.

I had fun nonetheless. I embarassingly used a pen at one stage, having a bit of a plot bunny come my way (it was a nice pen too).. it reminded me of Jess' 18th c/mocktail dance party.. She guessed that I would have more fun reading or something.. Sigh. Gregor, you understand ^_^ I can't change who I am; I wouldn't want to, and I hate when people feel sorry for me because they think I'm not having fun. It's the same with drinking or whatever. Pfft.

On the topic of pens, I can start compiling my Christmas wish list because.... I didn't have a writing utensil with me on Monday and after checking out the U2 18 Singles Cd, I poked around in a newsagent... Fountain pens!!! Ooohh.. I got so excited.. But they were something like $6.50 and even though I had the money, I didn't want to spend it.. But I tested them out.. Red and black.. Hasn't been anything this cool since Gregor gifted me with inky purple and green. Yes, so not only am I a sitting loner, I am a pen snob. I'm a coffee snob, but I can easily enjoy my International Roast (that's what's in this iced coffee).

[Insert Space Odyssey 2001 music]

Move review time!

The Prestige

**** 4/5 stars

'I didn't like it, but it was good.'

To mention the plot would mean spoilers, and I could write them in white, but I won't. I wasn't expecting much, despite how the tv ads try to make you want to see it. I wasn't convinced it would be good, but Bryan was the only one who didn't want to see Flags of Our Fathers, so we saw The Prestige. I knew the director and actors were good, but there were so many surprising twists!

I congratulate the film on existing outside the screen. It's a movie you find yourself thinking about for several days after seeing it, and you'd want to see it again so you can gain greater understand and make clear all the twists and character motives. Basically, you have two competitive magicians (Hugh Jackman and Christian Bale) who keep trying to one-up each other, going to great lengths to perform the best tricks, and both are obsessive in righting past wrongs against each other. Psychological thriller stuff that I like, I guess.

But it's something to keep discussing with friends (Steve, Jimmy, Bryan and I saw it together), and work out how much you had guessed was true, and what really happened when.. etc etc. The bad part about it was that there was a bit too much closure - I think the ending could have been slightly more open, but it was well-crafted nonetheless. I found while watching it that I wanted to watch DVD commentaries and docs on the making of it... I decided that I really do like film. I can blame Palgy, for who film is her forte, and Pirates 2 and Stargate DVD extras, but perhaps my dream of being a camera operator is undergoing revival.

Some of the thriller-violence (the kind of thing that isn't shown, but your imagination does for you) was a bit too far, but enhanced the movie's impact, so I didn't like it, but it was good.

Flags of our Fathers

**** 4/5 stars

'Good, but not brilliant.'

I can't work out why it wasn't brilliant. I came up with it very late last night, with reference to one scene in particular, but I can't remember now.

Straight after the movie, I was suggesting that perhaps there was too much closure, with lots of detail of what the soldiers did with their lives post flag-raising (contrastingly, something Stephen appreciated), but Jimmy argued it was the half-hour V.O. monologue narration. Maybe.

So Tristan, Jimmy, Shteve and myself saw this one, with Tristan most eventfully spilling his pink drink on his white shirt five minutes in. Stephen thinks he liked it most, and I guess so..

Ah! I remember now - I thought that the focus was slightly wrong. Disregarding the investigative nature of the obscured son and his narration, I think that it should have had more of an impact on me in other areas (ignoring that Clint Eastwood wrote the music, especially that guitar that lasted as long as the voice over monologue).

There was a poignant scene in which Ira was drunk and violent after being refused entry to a restaraunt or bar due to his being an American Indian. I thought that issues like this should have had a stronger focus - it reminded me of Civil Rights post-Vietnam. A man fights 'for his country' in war, comes back as hero (WWII, we're talking about here), yet can't even get a drink? I thought that this was more important than the narrator son talking about fatherdom.

The premise (communicated at the very end), was that if we truly want to honour such people, we should remember them as they actually were, not as false, posed photographs. My dad was really interested in the positioning of the film (as to whether it condemned the posed flag-raising or acknowledged that it was vital for the war effort), but the movie didn't say anything very controversial or shocking that made me think something new. I noticed that they de-saturated it more so than other war films, but I suppose they're allowed because it's mimicing photographs.

Highlights were the storming of the beach, Neal McDonough as a Captain (he played Buck in Band of Brothers), and various actors that have been in other movies like Saving Private Ryan or even Billy Elliot. I liked that there were no major stars in the film, and it will be very interesting to see the companion film next year, as I am I expecting it will be done right (with Japanese and subtitles), and that it will be done well.

So overall, I expected that Flags of Our Fathers should have been brilliant, but it wasn't, so that's a little disappointing, but it was quite well made. Again, documentaries would be interesting.

Beta!Lenny

2006-11-02T22:10:00.000+11:00

The inevitable Gigantic Catch-up Post is coming...

I'm lazing around to some classic Etta James and Al Green, ready to go to bed.. And I've just received official notification of virus updation of the other computer - I am allowed to use it again.

I stupidly began reading an extended series by Shadowphoenix in the middle of my exams - damn her for being such a great character writer! So there went my many hours *cough* of studying. I only have two left at the moment - English Extension 1 is tomorrow, and then History Extension on Tuesday. Then the HSC is OVER!

So I'll be quietly partying it up until... FRIDAY! Which, in the Lenny-typically-empty-social-calendar is U2!!!!

Yes, yes, massive hoorah and huzzah.

Late last night I came up with a crime story for the exam tomorrow... I wrote out a vague plan (I surprise myself with postmodern elements) and if I like what I write, I might post it up on fictionpress. I have several short stories I've written in the past month or so that I haven't typed up, and perhaps should. I'm finding Jonno's NaNoWriMo quite intriguing, and I especially like Part 3 It's actually quite terrible, because I'm moving into beta mode (editor of internet writings, roughly - it's fanfic talk), and then I make corrections or suggestions in my head.. I was doing that to a fic and mentioned a couple of things in the review... I realise that I only do this with good stories. You know, and I would wish I was the beta reader so I could read it first.. that's the advantage. And then you get to see how the author works and chooses on things and puts them together in the end. Bron, I think, once talked about how marvellous it is to just 'create' things. She's a super art-oh, and I'm not, but I know what she means.

Then I'd start questioning myself - how original am I being? etc etc... But when I've written and plotted lately, I'm purposely being unoriginal..

At Sunday @ Seven, I was playing with Amanda and Will's kid - Zach (who I once caught reading DMAG!) - noughts and crosses and the like. Then we had an Imagination Competition - drawing a dream or something.. I drew a wave, and then added an Egyptian surfie guy doing a bit of a dance.. But you lose your childhood and imagination disappears. Zap. I was always afraid of that.. For example, Zach instantly questioned the wave and turned it into acid. Would I have thought of that? Or would I have kept it in the realms of reality? Most likely the latter. Though, his drawings and stories ended up all being about some acid-producing, man-eating alien monster, I admired the child imagination. Shame on adulthood.

Hmm.. Ab igne ignem... applies to every situation. ^_^

The Night Before......

2006-10-19T20:31:00.000+10:00

As this is somewhat a momentous occasion in my life, I felt I should post. Future memory recall, and all that.

Yes, it has finally come to the night before the HSC. I think some people already had language exams today, but tomorrow the state hits their heads on desks and leave pens smudges on their foreheads with the (first) English exam.

*Raises eyebrow*

Indeed.

I haven't come up with a 'perfect' Inner Journey story, I assume I'll dream one up tonight. Heh.. Leave everything 'til the last minute; I think it's a Year Twelve philosophy.

Lately I've been getting into the tunes of Barry Manilow, and my mother told me she had a record. Bona fide! Goodbye computer!

I haven't posted lately because I had all these great plans for a great catch up post, with the dozens of holiday and partay activities I've been up to. Unfortunately, I've (temporarily) lost the camera so I can't upload all the pretty pictures. So look to that on your horizons.

I've been making myself happy by doing some writing recently. Including some old works that I want to finish in the next few months or so. And I'm very happy with the subconscious (and now on paper) work of one novella I'm nearly finished planning. It's always the middle that gets me.

I've managed to win one game of Spider Solitaire on medium, and this came up as I was discussing exam procrastination techniques with Kris last Friday. Well, soon the week will have come around (just like The Man), and then by the 7th of November I'll be quietly partying until the Society and Culture girls have finished their exam - then it will all be over.

But this HSC, it's just a moment. It's hard to think that it really matters, when I keep wanting to run out of buildings (with Ninja moves) and do God works. It's hard, but I feel really calm because everybody has been praying for me ^_^ and I want to focus on other things than passing this silly Ancient History (next Wednesday) pop quiz.

Enough of school, I'll be (hopefully) sleeping soon and then - my, I do overuse brackets (don't you think?)!

An Excess of (Not Phlegm) Quizzex

2006-09-17T18:31:00.000+10:00

With my second migraine in three days, I'm wondering whether it's quizzex (test anxiety) stress. Or perhaps just tiredness. I suggested coffee withdrawal, but my mother pointed out that there had been no instances for this to occur (despite my one strong coffee yesterday).

Interesting.

I decided that if/when I move out, I'm going to use only blue lightbulbs/shades.. The yellow is so painful.. 'Curling up and dying' is a very apt migraine expression. I have Roni to thank for that.

I DON'T want to be a whaler. Sometimes it's very hard to convince myself. You know, I'd invite you into my mind but for the mess I've made... hahahahaa *goes and dies*

Up to Chapter 87 for Year. Some of them are probably close to 10, 000 words each (! I can only aspire!), so it's not like they're measly and short. Ahh, fun.

At Becca's wonderful party today (many photos impending), some year 12s were discussing post-school relationships, whether we'd keep in contact with each other or not.. 'There's some people you just know' etc. that you're not going to make a huge effort to keep in contact with. I'm not referring to people of other grades - I'm definately sticking with those great people - but yes, there are people I'm not going to be calling everyday of the week. Besides, I hate the phone anyway. Well, I am a loner, and I have drifted this year, so I'm not super close to.. many people at the moment. But there's people I'll still see around, and I'll visit Carmen in Canberra while she's super fit and ADFA-ing. Oooh, I'm just so proud.

Funny how we never imagine ourselves amounting to a thing.

Well, we would desire it... I'm being humble this week. It's been interesting, because I've found it's hard to specifically work on, unlike other mini-missions. But it's been nice, memorising bits of Psalm 25. It's all fitting in with following the God-map. Yay. ^_^

Have fun studying, and more accurately for many, not studying. Luf!

Genki wo dashite

2006-09-16T18:26:00.000+10:00

EXO Camp was great, by the way. Photos impending. Along with visual markers of life's recent events. Such as the parents burning down the kitchen. *raises eyebrow and nods*

Mother and I are going away this weekend to enjoy some fresh air and de-stress before the HSC.. I'm looking forward to three days of blissful beach-walking, tea-sipping, card-playing laziness. Ok, maybe we'll play Cluedo instead of cards.. heh.

Rebecca's Software major work is great - she made a computerised version of Monopoly! It's a shame that there's only two players.. and I look forward to this supposed finished version that will be out by the end of the year.. My favourite part is the smiley face that pops up with 'You've managed to get yourself out of jail'.

I'm up to about the 80th chapter of A Year Like None Other, and thoroughly enjoying it the second time around.. I'm close to where I got up to before..

Impending excitement.. BLACK STUMP! I get random bouts of Sundance Kids + Sons of Korah + Idea of North + Paradyme + The Veld (haha) hysteria.. I just hope we find a bigger tent this time.. errghh.. and the dirt..

Ooh! Stump! ^_^

The main reason I haven't been posting lately is that I've had no need to distract myself. Which is great, but the equal and opposite reaction is that some people may be less diverted...

And on the topic of boring: I'm about halfway through doing the tax papers, and I registered my university preferences.

I'm looking forward to the end of school, of which I have about 2 weeks left - most lessons people in the Cottage and trying to convince themselves they should turn up to class. We're either doing practise exams, listening to teachers droll on.. or going and having a luncheon at a local chinese restaraunt! Yay for the blisses of Modern History. We went out and had lunch as a class (our teacher told the waiter that we wouldn't be having any alcohol - despite those who might be over 18 - ha) and chatted about post-school aims and bumping into Old Girls while filling further our bloated stomachs. Lardy goodness.. Well, actually, we didn't have any deep-fried lard (sweet and sour pork's affectionate name, China Tour '06).. I ended up going home from school instead of going to Ancient and a practise exam due to a migraine. Sigh. Dasso will think I was just trying to get out of it.. Though I wouldn't blame anyone who was.. *furtive glance at Meg who may or may not have genuinely had a bad headache*

Yay for the Rocket Boys! Er, I mean, I love ficticious bands as advertised by fictitious people in other ficticious bands.. *contented sigh*

Oh, too much fairy floss from John today.. !!!!!! I've only had one coffee today! hmm.. it's too late to have a non-decaf now.. ahem. Well, this morning I had terrible cravings, but convinced myself that as I was having one later at John's church's fete, I wouldn't need... SHOULDN'T have one.. and then I thought 'oh, I'll have tea instead', but I didn't really want tea, I wanted coffee...

MMmmm.. Like the firefirefire chant... *eyes glaze over*

Terrible. Pathetic. Oh, I'm rather wimpy when it comes to my favourite things. Did you know that I have a 25% off voucher for manga at Borders?

*gigantic grin*

I'll Be Seeing You

2006-09-07T19:49:00.000+10:00

I've made a chocolate cake with green chocolate icing, ate twice the amount of icing used (making my stomach murkily complaining) and slept. Yes, glorious sleep!

I've had several thoughts about posting lately, and as I normally do, made up sentences I would write, but haven't felt like actually compiling an account. Instead I've done a bit of story-writing and plotting.. some strange plot bunnies have come my way and leave me preoccupied.

I stayed home from school today to rest. I haven't slept properly since trials. Turns out I did better in Modern than I thought. But apparently our reports are showing our exam marks, not our year mark (as only the Board of Studies can know, for some reason). Oh, and for Ancient, I got pulled aside by my teacher, I said that there were not excuses.. FYI, I did nearly as badly as one maths test I think I got 31% for. I'm told to do better for the HSC, and of course I will. I'll actually try.

My problem is that I don't need a high U.A.I for what I want to do - a BA. So there's no drive to aim for 98.15 like some people are doing, I just need to do 'alright'. I have no ambitious drive. And, as Harry Potter analogies are becoming my forte`, I would make a terrible Slytherin. I'm all very cunning and devious and crafty, but ambition? Pah. Hopeless am I. I mean, there are things I would desire to achieve, but I tell myself it's all fantasy anyway. I'm just little me, and all those illusions of grandeur need to be shoved aside so that I don't get big-pig-headed. I like pigs. I have several in my room. They make me smile.

And there's my old jealousy complex - you know how everyone else has what you wish you did... It's hard to think that my life will amount to anything when someone else knows exactly what they're going to (have to) do. I'll just plod along, in this state of semi-misery. I need some sort of hormonal drugs to make up for the balance in my brain.

I also dislike most of the male population at the moment. Well, specific people, and then it affects what I think of others.

It's hard to forgive someone that hurts themselves, and thus.. well, offends you too.

I think of my YBS boys eg. Jimmy and Dave and I suppose Rindi.. They're great. Easy to have fun and be relaxed and be myself with. See, guy friends like these don't expect anything of you, and you don't expect anything of them. I dunno. Comfortable friendship. It's one of those things I can say 'It just is'.

When I finish school I'll miss all my little people. Especially China Tour friends, because I feel so protective of them and keep threatening to bash up deputy principals and the like. I think we all know such actions are jests and my chicken arms would never be able to carry it out.

So I'm annoyed at other people and annoyed at myself. Grr.. miserable cycle.. grr. >.<

I've made myself an Adelaide 'mix tape' with all my fav tunes, and I wouldn't mind getting a cd of Gorecki, or Etta James, or James Dead/Rat Pack or maybe even Embrace. Hmm.. and it turns out that the Fray is some well-known and loved band. *shrug*

EXO camp is this weekend, and I don't mind that it will most likely rain. I must not forget to call James so we can have coffee... Should be fun. See, it's the simple things I look forward too.

We had our anticipated Pompeii Death Day party in ancient yesterday.. Meg made gingerbreadmen that had skeleton/dead body icing. And Rachael had some delicious cucumber sandwiches. You just don't know how great they are until you try them. On the other hand, I ate goat's cheese. Gross. You're fine to miss out on that if you've never tasted it. There were olives, too, but the way they sat in the middle of the table, untouched, reminded me of my raw oyster experience.

So hopefully I'll stop being annoyed at the majority of the population and do right by myself and have more than one coffee (did you know that coffee cures headaches? Wonderful stuff, International Roast) tomorrow. I'll get better over the weekend, I'm sure. Mum and I might even be going on a little holiday sometime soon. That'll be nice. 'Get out of Sydney, get out of Sydney' and whatever else Ms Rowe harped on about. Well, I can still escape to A Year Like None Other no matter where I am.

Apologies.

My brain smells like porridge

2006-09-01T09:23:00.000+10:00

Life, ie. school at the moment consists of getting exams back and then having the teacher tell you she's disappointed about the other exams she can't give back yet because the marks haven't been recorded.. sigh.. Wow! I only have female teachers. Ahh well, the history faculty wouldn't let a man in, no matter how hard he tries..

I've done all major works now.. I've even gotten one back. I've done extremely well in the History project and the drama exam, so I'm telling the 'rents these marks make up for the abysmal everything-else.

Printer's not working. I wonder what mother did to it.. :(

Today I finally have the opportunity to take advantage of a morning free - normally I'd have ext 2 before school, but I am rid of such meetings now! Ah, sleep is great.

Ok, my thoughts are only for the printer now. Apologies, farewell.

Mutto for President! ...er...

2006-08-29T20:54:00.000+10:00

Actually, Mutto would probably make a very good President. Perhaps - he probably also wouldn't want to.

Anyway, he's a great down-to-earth guy of real integrity, and I'm glad to say I've met him (a few times)..

Gah!! Australian Idol making him on last tonight.. But he made an excellent last, with 'hope' on his hand (and was that a MakePovertyHistory band I saw? ^_^ ) and a great version of a great Switchfoot song. I can't tell if my favourite part was him going around close to the audience and singing to Kyle or whether it was pulling the classic Mutto/Soulframe moves for the camera at the beginning.

Oh, Mutto. Please vote for him if you are willing to part with some phone credit! grr.. he'd better make it through.. grr..

So aside from my Idol!Mutto excitement, I have finished trials/yearly exams. Some I did quite badly, and while people would say I am hyperbolising when I estimate 38%, I can say - yes - I most certainly got at least below 37%! Well, we shall see when we get back the results of Ancient History (which was today - the worst exam I think I've ever done in my life). There goes my mark. I hope that exam wasn't worth as much of my final mark as I think it is.. there goes the yearly report and internal mark.. I just have to not be sick and do really well in the hsc.. Sigh..

On the other hand, I liked English Extension1, with my crime fiction story involving a suburban double murder with carving up of bodies and discoveries of eyeballs and entrails in garbage bins. Great fun. Ha ha.. The other highlights of exams were, of course, the monumental cock-up of English Paper 1, in which I had to write a speech about 'Inner Journeys', while I had fun in History quoting a historian about JFK, Schlesinger's superfluous language never ceases to amaze:

It was this combination of toughness and wit, of will, nerve and wisdom, so brilliantly controlled, so matchlessly calibrated, that dazzled the world.

Oh, Arthur, you really take it to town.

So for a week I'm relaxing and massaging my poor bruise`d hand (four hours of writing a day can be painful) while I rewatch V for Vendetta (because I love it) and have finished rereading The Half-Blood Prince (I still don't want to talk about it. *sniffle* Oh, betrayal!). I'm looking forward to getting my Complete Works of Bill Shakesy back from James; it's a post hsc-ambition to do quite a bit of reading. And writing, as I have said previously. Yay.

Toodle-do. Or 'oo'. I don't think I've ever really been informed.

Sloven

2006-08-24T20:47:00.000+10:00

I've been getting into the Snow Patrol, the Damien Rice, the Al Green and The Fray. Smooth songs, good lyrics for pondering. And some classic noise.

Relaxing and delicious.

So I left the modern exam 45 minutes early because I answered everything (although probably should have written two more pages for each question).. there goes my brilliant mark. Shrug, I say, shrug!

Oh Lentil, you know you care.

Looks like the marshmallow barbie at Gregor's might be cancelled due to rain (apparently churches like rain so we'll be hitting the cushions again instead).. :(

I had chocolate and nearly ruined my dinner, and I've already had my coffees for the day.. What else can I do? Tea, t'mocha, t'chocolatte... hmm.. decaftichocolatte... Yes, yes, soon I'll start my own company.

Ha ha!

adrian says: my friends asked me if i wanted to watch a movie
The Grim Spectre of Death aka Lenny says: what movie?

adrian says: if i tell you youll laugh

Lenny says: is it.. snakes on a plane?
adrian says: would you believe me if i said no?

Lenny says: well, it made me laugh. what movie?

adrian says: snakes on a plane

..Classic stuff...

Chloe is sick of the mainstream underground. Interesting concept. Unfortunately, I don't like the mainstream and I don't know the underground music. What's the most embarrassing CD I own? That would take a while to decide.. because there are some rather embarrassing cds, but I don't mind owning them. They're fun. On the other hand... well, vice versa. I think.

Saturday is Sydney Uni open day.. I'm expecting a lot of blatant propaganda and I probably won't go there, despite it being prettier and more propaganda-y than Macquarie. Another thing to shrug about and then be distracted by thoughts of decaf.. Enough.

Where's the good crime fiction staple whem you want it? I used to complain, but it's something that studying in english has actually made more fun! Or perhaps my mother has influenced me so greatly that I do want to watch all the Law and Order and CSI variations.. ahh well, I'll be writing my own over the next few days.. see what interesting murders I can come up with. Any ideas?

The Fellowship of the Bling

2006-08-23T20:33:00.000+10:00

The title is not a parody - it is the name of an episode of Neighbours. Note: I didn't stay around to watch it.

It could be quite an angsty post, as I'm feeling all desperation and am beyond the point of stress. But I don't want my readers to feel bad, or feel bad for me.

So I'm going to tell you all about my new notebook.

Three dollars from Angus and Robertson, it's delightfully sleek and black on the IFC (magazine jingo, sorry).. ha.. irony: it says 'knowledge is power' in white text, I am remembering now.

Sorry - no exam angst. So anyway, this notebook is part of a wave of new notebooks for my various stories and novels.. This one is for The First Casualty, a story I hope to have finished by the end of the year. Fanfiction, FYI... And so is 'Redemption', but that's for later brooding. My mum surprised me a few weeks ago with a large blank-paged spiral notebook she got for cheap and I'm going to use that for one of my long-been-in-the-planning novels. Yes, yes, you can be one of the first to get a signed copy.. heh..

You know, I don't believe in autographs.

I've had little daydreams about meeting relatively (un)famous people, and just shaking their hands, telling them I was much gladder to meet them and no, I wouldn't like an autograph. I just don't think they have much meaning. It's a piece of paper (or expensive copy of a poster/photograph/other merchandise) with a scribbled name that is merely a memory of an experience. I'd rather have the memory itself.

Of course, my memory is ridiculous and while I can remember being told off at my third birthday party, I can't remember something that happened three years ago or even three days. Three hours, even. I can remember the last three minutes because I'm still doing the same thing.

So as I'd rather observe a person I know of from a far distance instead of talking to them or getting a hastily jotted autograph, I end up knowing a person far better than they know me when we meet. Which can often be strange, because I'll know things about them, and perhaps begin to say things - and realise that they wouldn't know how I know such things... Like it would be too personal, and I need time for them to get to know me first. Sigh. Such is the life of Lenny :P

And EXTROVERTS.. No, don't let me get started on them.. heh.. INTJ, all the way! No, these days I have a form of distant fondness for extroverts, in that I know their ways (and they don't, the unobservant creatures they often are.. silly isolated me), and it's so obvious to me the way.. Well, the way they have a need to process things out loud. Ahh, the beginning days of Formation.

So anyway.. I'm quite tired, had too much coffee to try and cope (about 4 cups, how can I resist when there's so much International Roast on the house.. and it's mine), and feeling sick and I'll be quiet now so Suchu doesn't run to pity and hug that might make her fall over and need crutches. Again.

Heh, only joking Suchu.

Wink.

Identity of War

2006-08-16T17:21:00.000+10:00

Some avatar-esque amusement for ye.

Today I purchased the wonderful V For Vendetta DVD, and it came with a special edition tin. Yay for merchandising. It was good I got it from Ezy DVD - apparently no other shop around was selling it (I had looked extensively too). I want to re-read the graphic novel now. Some stuff about Creedy and the ending with Finch... Yes, while I'm at school pretending to revise.

Trials have gone okay so far, although only two exams are done. The ones I'm most worried about would be Ancient and Modern History. Drama HSC 30% final mark performance on Monday? pfft. *wink*

Nah, I'll be fine. I've got some boots of readiness with the gospel of peace. Worrrrd.

I'm off to 'destress' a little more with some erroneous game-playing. Hope ye be faring well, humble reader.

And the word of the day: Arrrr! (Cliched piratey goodness, avast ahoy matey!)

Oh what a feeling - dishwasher!

2006-08-14T10:38:00.000+10:00

Do you know how delightful it feels to open a freshly churned dishwasher and have the steam rise over your fingers?

Ohhhh yes. *dreamy eyes*

Well, I'm a Cold Fish and I like warmth.

In reference (and agreement) to Jonno's post:

"I am allowed to do all thing," but all things are not good for me to do. "I am allowed to do all things," but I will not let anything make me its slave. - 1 Corinthians 6:12

Freedom aint free. You were bought by God for a price. So honour him with your body. (Drawing on 1 Corinthians 6:19,20)

I know a lot of people believe the Bible is a load of tosh and perhaps I shouldn't be quoting from it to try and support my point. However, I'm illustrating a point of view. I've had heated discussions with Brian about how faith+alcohol does not = a correct equation. He maintains that Catholics are the drinking Christians. Hm.

I don't want to destroy my body, so I don't drink. I've never been drunk in my life. And I think that the consequences of the experience aren't worth the 'fun'.

It's the same with smoking. All the smokers that I know quite well say 'just don't start. It is bad.' It's quite easy to say that smoking is wrong, because the side effects are so 'obviously bad'. Whereas drinking is just a little fun, eh?

Hm. I just don't want to put myself in that position. I, while in arguing with Brian, was saying something along the lines of 'I don't need to experience something to know it's wrong for me to do', and he was saying, 'sure', but sometimes there are lessons you need to learn. So perhaps he'll have a near-death experience near the RSL and then change his mind about getting drunk once a month. But - if you can see that you're going to end up learning a lesson - should you really have to put yourself through something terrible first?

Perhaps it's all this 'youthful ignorance'. I fear the whole 'apathetic generation' bizo. Maybe I should go into politics and set things straight. 'If I ran the world', and all that jazz. However, I am in no position to rightly judge anyone. Ahem. It seems clear from above that I'm doing more than 'discerning'. Dearie me. Let's just say that you're entitled to your opinion and I'm entitled to mine.

All you need is love. If people cared a little more, if everyone cared a little more, bad stuff wouldn't happen as much.

*

As far as Donnie Darko, Jonno - as if I haven't already got the entire collection of its beautifulness. ^_^ Ah, Life Aquatic soundtrack.. Perhaps I should see that movie.

I'm off to an early lunch and then my first exam. Should be fine. Can't wait til I can be like the luffly Sarah and trials are finished!

Sad Songs and Waltzes

2006-08-13T22:09:00.000+10:00

Later that night, after she had studied and played and read, Lenny sat down and listened.

Cake's Sad Songs and Waltzes is a glorious tune. Melancholy, full with trumpet solo. Tragic, humorous, and all reality. It's the song of the night, the song of the year.

The brother has apparently heard of 'Cake', and mentions a song I have also heard of. Yet, the style is very different. However, it was an ambiguous, lucky find, so who knows. *shrugs happily*

Yes, Suchu, last year I landed you in crutches. A memory I hold perfectly. You were skipping happily, myself with a smile on my face - then BAM! (full with 60s Batman cheer). On the concrete. I maintain, half-proudly, that it was my fault. I poke my tongue out, pretending to believe it true. So there.

I often forget, when I'm talking to people, that they have no idea what I'm talking about.

For example, I started 'discussing' Harry Potter with Bob and Jess on the train to/from The Seven Stages of Grieving, and then realised that Bob has probably only read the series once, and I have no idea where Jess would be up to. I forget that some people aren't such fanatics as I. (I have never really classified HP as one of my obsessions... incorrectly so. It is a re-occurring one. Oh dear.)

It becomes problematic when arguing the finer points of fantastical life, which I can, with glee, compare with articulating with Katy what sort of alcohol Severus Snape would consume on his lonely nights. We came to the conclusion that he would drink wizarding drinks (but perhaps Firewhiskey is below him), and on the occasion red wine. None of this Snarry fic drinking game Scotch business. Ahem.

Does anyone know of any delectable piano suites? That's what I'm looking into music wise at the moment. And, frighteningly, I think my mother's influence is prodding me into classy pop.

"!" I hear you think. So do I.

Ahh, as Freddie would sing, Melancholy Blues.

I'm still looking out for Mutto on Idol (the only reason I've been watching) - looks like QLD will finally be on tomorrow night. But there was a boy from Sydney who freakily resembled Koyuki. High, boyish voice and everything. I shake my head at myself often, you know. Yes, I do live in my head.

You know who's cool? Adrian is cool. I like people who are quietly my friends. ^_^ All they need do is sit beside you. No expectations - it's mutual. Yay.

And to Kate: I mean no insult. Again, I can only expect such craziness in knowledge of myself. Who else can I expect to know about the editing of the Bicycle/Fat Bottomed Girls cover art? Not even Brian, to be sure. He's more concerned about that ballerina. Grr...

*coughs*

I'll be off now. I forgive you for having no understanding of what I'm saying. ^_^ In fact, I pity me too.

Edit: What sort of person wonders about what a fictional (noooo! don't say it!) character has to drink, anyway?

Repeat after me: We are all individuals.

We are all individuals.

I'm not!

It would have to be a 13+ version, anyway, with alcohol consumption... *thwacks self over head*

I forget everything

2006-08-11T21:10:00.000+10:00

Today was a slightly more bludgy day - all the studying I did was watch/listen to some My Private Idaho extras (I'm using it as an English related text) and read some of Ben Elton's The First Casualty (World War One revision for Modern).

We had a meeting with a rep. from our publisher for the Yearbook, so things shall be moving along soon. Katy has become the Chief, I think. I'm the second-in-command - yay! ^_^

I got the INNUENDO album! And it turns out I get a 20% off next time from Borders since I'm signing up with their mailing list/propaganda.. I knew I should have bought some Wild Act manga and waited until I had another 20% off discount... However, I am thoroughly enjoying the sounds of '91, and some of the tracks are just beautiful. Queen at its 'end', with some loving songs of Freddie Mercury. Some of my favourites from my Greatest Hits too, including Innuendo itself. So I listened to the CD twice and a bit already.

Kate came in and joked about how 80s music was so fun (because it's so bad or something), and I had to correct her - early 90s, please. Yet, probably a lot of it was recorded earlier.

My legs are sore from walking to the station this morning and then becoming Igor the evil creature for our drama performance for parents tonight. Lots of fun, and if I can get a video of it, I'll put it up somewhere.

It was weird to have people watching and laughing - we haven't had a cold audience before. Admittedly, Amie laughs more than everyone, but other people laughed too. The only concern there would be that we increase the time of the performance, waiting until it's died down.. It all depends.

And we're cutting out a theatre sportsy line that Rowe imagined she heard tonight, which was originally:

Only $4738.95. Call now and you'll receive a free set of steak knives!

..So you can slit your wrists in style!

Well, we only had the price and 'call now' tonight, but we'll just replace it with another rhyme... I asked the mother what she thought our piece was about, and she came up with the same ideas that we wanted to convey, which is excellent and it means we're on track. We really only have to polish now, but I can't say too much more because some of our future year ten audience members may be reading.. *smiles*

My face is tired from crazy expressions, laughing in rehearsal at ridiculousness, and trying not to laugh during the performance... I managed to keep a straight face during one of the stupidest moments, so I'm quite proud of myself.

In a humble way, of course. ^.-

So I'm going to chill with some Civ II for an hour, have a fretful sleep, and study hard tomorrow! Hwa!

Oh dear. Exams shall not be fun. But they shall soon be over!

Faith makes us sure of what we hope for and gives us proof of what we cannot see.

(Hebrews 11:1)

You Could Be Happy

2006-08-08T19:44:00.000+10:00

'The time has come', the Walrus said...

Backbench Politics

Please don't be like Timothy Daly and think that the homeless man is a politician and that there are only two characters in the entire play... *shudders*

This version (the 7th draft) is probably so close to the final version that there's no point in re-uploading if I do. I'm sorry I couldn't be bothered to make it pretty. That was the original intention.

It's funny how much shorter the script appears all H.t.amelated. Ah sigh. The hours of sweat and tears (there was never any blood).. Actually, it wasn't like that at all. The night of doing History, I was high on coffee and decided 'Hey, why I don't I finish writing my other major work! It's only 2 in the morning!' and voila - done. Well, I've had feedback from plenty of peers (anyone other than Rowe), and I'm looking to get more. In the Cottage we've set up a space for people to leave their Ext. 2 and etc. major works for anyone to read and scribble all over. Getting people to scribble all over my story and script have been really good. The more comments, the better.

You think YOU have My Space issues. While patiently trying to check out the new ragin' EP (!) video, I join the crew of time-wasters trying to survive the ethereal My Space.

Jess was telling me over the weekend how distracting the place is. Yes, distracting, to a point of pain. Alas.

With the dreaded Trials on the horizon, that act as our yearly exams and roughly 40%, I'm stressing about not stressing. I wish I had gotten stressed earlier so I studied! Freaking out, freaking out... Well, I've been focusing on major works and group performance lately, too exhausted to try and read and write. And besides, I'm not allowed to freak out - Gregor has already done all the stressing out for me.

Have you done your Census yet?

As for the lack in posting, I know plenty of people *pointed stare* who don't post in the space of a few days. But as for blogs like Restricted Heir Space - please "bring back the biff" as the Supre shirts say (or whatever it is that is said on Supre or not t-shirts). Highly humorous biff, that is.

So, frolick along with Backbench Politics and I'll pretend to work ^_^

*remembers Australian Idol Adelaide auditions* haha...

I Can't Speil My Own Name

2006-08-07T23:02:00.000+10:00

So, this one time I was replying to an email, and I tried typing out 'Lynette'. It didn't work.

L-Y-E-N... No.... not lenny-lynette... That's not my name, you can't wear it out.. Anyway, *dances to Big Bear Trap*

Lenny's got herself a bright fluro kind of pink ukelele that has to be seen to be believed. Well, you can probably imagine it, but I'll put up photos soon.

School at the moment is rather drab, and I've been filled with fabricating major work logbooks and - sigh. My breaks at the moment from truanting on practise exams are: drama and writing. Drama (group) is tiring, and we've been working really hard, and Rowe likes it, having seen it today. It's a relief. The assessment is on Wednesday, we're performing it for parents and friends on Friday... We're trying to see if we can scrounge together the end of Backbench Politics as well... it may not happen. Ha, most likely not. Oh well. It would be cool to see everyone's IPs, cause it's probably the only chance.

So working on group is a nice break from all the written school work, and my other thing is writing, as I've got two stories milling in my head at the moment, but I'm launching onto the severitus one.. hmm..

Tonight we saw The Seven Stages of Grieving. A lot more of it makes sense in performance (we study it for Australian Theatre in drama), and there were some things I got, such as the melting ice throughout the entire play metaphor that weren't actually in this production.

It was pretty powerful, and some of my favourite parts (yes, I'm going to ruin it for you), were when The Woman said "We're black and we're here." Adding something like 'that's how it'll be forever'. Also, the 'sorry in the sky' for the Bridge walk, and the deep conviction she had when talking about "Reconciliation isn't something you read or write. It's something you do."

So true.

As it was openin' night, there were lots of celebs all around. My fellow drama-ohs were all excited and giggling, whereas I just wanted to hide. We saw a lot of actors from Capricornia (the actress for Seven Stages was in that), Deborah Mailman was there, we got introduced to a famous Shakespearian trained Indigenous performer after the show, and there was one woman who was more than suspiciously similar to .. well, someone on Big Brother. Casey and DJ knew who it was. And, after the show, I saw her up close (exactly as I saw her on Rove). So, anyway, people exist. And known persons are just people too. And I feel all awkward about giggling and talking and trying to guess if and where they really are you who think they are. When Rowe was saying we have to meet this man ... I didn't want to. I mean, he has his own life, and unless in 20 years we're famous and could say 'meeting him was my inspiration', it doesn't really do anything. Rowe was saying 'what a real honour' after, and I suppose that's true. But I'd hate it if I met Someone Famous and got all super giggly or tried to be cool or *shudders*. So, I just let them be, and in my naturally anti-social self, just retreat, happy to watch silently from the sidelines.

More interesting tonight was one of the ushers. He was so Harry.

Another pet hate? The 'nice' 'polite' voices people put on. You know, your voice pitch increases a few tones - your telephone voice, the voice of Pizza Hut Call Centre people, the voice you put on at Target and then screamed to yourself after... Yes, it's only when you notice it in yourself.

Got to go.

All You Need

2006-08-03T19:25:00.000+10:00

If you really cared about someone, you'd tell them the truth.

Hwoooop!

2006-07-25T14:30:00.000+10:00

*Jumps around*

The Sundance Kids are going to be at Stump!!!!

This is very exciting... also, the Stump club have pushed back the early-bird rego date so my YBS buds can get in with the cheapest price... I shall hastle them on Friday.

People are getting stressed about school, but for some reason I'm more relaxed... Aside from 'I've nearly finished all my major works even though people have two due due on Monday..' So I hand in my script tomorrow. I guess I should post Backbench Politics online.. I'm also gathering Bob, Jess, Fi and Dave to perform it next month as part of my church's Concert Night fundraiser. But, seeing as Ms Rowe likes my script (and how well you do in drama tends to depend on the mood of Ms Rowe and her personal opinion), I should do okay. Group performance is coming along slowly and steadily, we just started again today... aha.. today, tonight.. well, last night anyway... Bob-the-genius.

Right now I should be studying for Indochina practise exam on friday... meh. Some reading, Civ II and NO MORE COFFEE (I'm aiming for 1 per day!), and she'll be right.

Oooh, Sundance Kids!!! *dances* For those who want to know what all the fuss 'n hype is about:

www.blackstump.org.au
http://www.myspace.com/thesundancekids

Have fun.

Also, in the last week I have discovered the saddest, most beautiful music.. Henry Gorecki. It's classical, but it's classy. *fades away*

One Down, Lying Beaten On The Ground

2006-07-20T21:58:00.000+10:00

So. freaking. unreal.

I have just finished a major work!

In fact, I've printed a copy! It's too late to check those footnotes one last time - Goodbye Mussolini! Ha-harrr!

*dances around in tiredness, not sure whether to be happy or sad she's only had one coffee today*

One down, 3 to go. Pant, pant, and all the rest of it. I really should go straight to bed, as I'm feeling tired, there's still sleep to catch up on.. tomorrow morning I get to HAND IT IN (!) and get the principal's autograph to say it's my certifiable work. *victory dance* Ha - it's like when in China Chloe really really needed the bathroom.. I wish I had taken a photo of her victory pose after she made it. It was a great moment. ^_^

So I guess I should upload the silly little essay somewhere so it can be glanced at and never viewed again. Ahh, angelfire, you were always so good to me. Hehehh.. I might even make it pretty.

This achievement reinforces that you don't have to read or know anything to complete history extension.. Some late-night skim reading, much procrastination and stress - a barrel of fun monkeys all cavorting around in your head.

Hmm.. Hot chocolate should do the trick. Oh, that woman (ie. the mother).. She buys 3 bottles of milk, and is one of them full cream? NoooooOoOoOoo..

I don't really mind. *continues punching victory dance (ooh! Tim - it's like your ninjustu moves!... if you know what I'm talking about -.-0) all the way around the house*

No eating here toNIGHT!

Thanks for the hug today, Suchu. You're so luffly ^_^ Thanks, for no particular reason. Other than that hugs are great. And so are you!

All The Promises We Make

2006-07-18T01:16:00.000+10:00

Hmm.. Hopefully this is the last pattern of my staying up late to do school work. I can't believe I care so much. How miserable >.<

However, these are some of my last.assessments.ever! So perhaps I should have been celebrating more since I was doing them very last minute and with only two cups of coffee (one of them not 'real' coffee). Well, laddies, it was fun.

So now I only have major works, drama assessments, trial exams and the dreaded (or not-so-dreaded) HSC. I maintain that it's all a joke.

Which is why I'm staying up late and doing this work. Sigh.

Today I had to go to school for a drama group performance workshop with a guy from ATYP and band workshop. We were basically told that our characters were good but we had no story. So there goes 10 weeks of work, we're starting over. And since we decided we're not really attached to our characters (Bob particularly, I thought my perfectionist was alright), they wouldn't work in any storyline. In the last 10 minutes of workshopping, I was past it (had a rather obtrusive migraine), but was asked to identify what hypocrisy I could identify in myself and thus hate... What happened to our Celebration of Life, I say! So we might either be doing something super meaty and meaningful and serious, or something super sketchy (which the fomer would be anyway, as we don't have much time to start afresh), or we could return to what we had already done. The problem is that now we've been told we should drop it, there's a kind of stigma about it... as though we couldn't returned if we tried.

>.<

The only thing I like at the moment is my script. Which I shall have to fabricate a logbook for. Joy!

No, it's fine. Because in a few minutes I'll be all rugged up in bed. Smiling that I finally got Day at the Races (!!yes!!!) and extremely happy the printer didn't die tonight. The computer looked like it was going to, for a bit.

One more coffee for the road? It's already tomorrow, so my limit I can start anew...

No, coffee and middle-of-the-night hunger is striking. To bed I must go!

*dances away with Carmen to hopefully see Superman tomorrow/today!*

*thwacks self over head*

Yes! Unconscious!

A Day At The Races

2006-07-16T20:47:00.000+10:00

Heyzaa,

sorry for not posting much. I have been... busy! Yes, that's a great excuse, I should use it more.. (Glances shiftily at assessments she is yet to do)

I've seen my YBS (youth bible study) boys 5 times this week. Yay. I like friends ^_^

Today was quite fun: Myself, Shteve, Dave, Jimmy and Bec went into the city for Pancakes On The Rocks (ohh, I'm still bloated), then random shopping. I have now tried to get the V For Vendetta graphic novel from 4 different places - time shall run out on my Borders 15% off voucher... On the alternative, I purchased volume 2 of BECK manga (I told you I'd eventually get it legally!) and Robin Hood Prince of Thieves on DVD.. At JB Hi-Fi I also saw the never-before-beheld Queen - Day at the Races album!! And only $20!!! I shall be rushing over there after drama/band rehearsal tomorrow.. Yay for spending!

I asked the mother this morning if she'd make me get a job (after school/after I start Uni)... it was concluded that probably not, if I could continue to get holiday work with DMAG. Yay. Hehehh.. I love buddying it up with Australian Geographic Chief Editors... XD

Oh Gregor, I would very much like to steal your job, please. I'd even do it for Pizza Hut Call Centre wages... Or Mc Donalds', for that matter.. *sigh* Dream job *sigh*...

So this week .. whoa, it's been a long one.. World Cup watching, Wednesday.. saw people .. ahh right - Pirates of the Caribbean.. ^_^ I liked it. How could I not?

I remember Laura (school friend) and I were agreeing that if the sequel was really terrible, well it couldn't be, as long as Captain Jack Sparrow was who he is, and that was all that was necessary and Depp can't stuff that up so we were guaranteed... and I have all faith in Ted and Terry, the wonderful writers (they also did Shrek).

There was also movies at John's house, last night. I was incredibly excited - I couldn't remember a time when I'd been to a video night. We watched Mean Girls (the boys were nearly in tears) and then Shanghai Noon, which I had forgotten I'd seen. All fun. Haven't had that much sleep therefore, and so am at even greater pains in avoiding assessment work.. and then we don't talk about major works... *wails and buries face in a rag which she has been using to clean the spilt blood from her stabbed heart* (many things cause me to die..)

Coffee note of the post: I expected to have at least 3 today... It was terrible last night. I could smell it.. and I hadn't had any. Oh, withdrawal... At Jess' place when we were practising drama group performance, Bob remarked that it seemed I was addicted now. Um, yes. All those times when I said I was addicted before, I was just joking, perhaps. It's terrible. Don't start, kiddies. It's just like smoking. All the smokers say 'never start'. I know that if I had a real reason, I would stop. It's the same with leaving school work to the last minute. Guilt alone doesn't motivate me at all. And then being positive works the same as guilt on me. I just can't do it. I need more pressure. And losing half of an assessment's work that you did months ago and won't be able to redo in the same glory is more than enough demotivation to procrastinate further. Looks like there's going to be some fun tomorrow night, ladies.

Yes, I think that shall do me..

Oh, what do I want to do next year? I think today I finally settled on Macquarie Uni.. A Bachelor of Arts.. That's what I want to do. Yay (and extra whoops for Holiday Uni)! I also want to do volunteer/community work at the library... oh yes, and avoid getting a job. Most of all in retail/having any customer contact. Shudder.

Some more rambling:

2006-07-12T18:40:00.000+10:00

Today was highly eventful: no fun-sock purchasing involved, but I got three pairs of white school socks. Hopefully this means no more horrendous blisters on the bottom of my ring-finger toes.

Ok, so you have your 'big toe' - but I always call the others 'pinky finger toe' etc... Do toes have their own names other than the Big one? Hmm, intriguing...

So 'twas in the city today that I saw the W0man In Black (which I didn't know anything about before seeing)- I was wanting to use it as a Crime Fiction related text (haha! Yes! I am superior!) but this was a plan that didn't work out so well :( as there wasn't really any crime.. It was more about finding out if there was a crime than the solving of one. The audience was predominantly white-haired so I felt every one of my short 18 years...

In the quite shocking/scary bits of the Woman In Black, the old people laughed! I was most appalled (aside from the fact I was feeling like clutching my mother's arm in fear). was this their way of dealing with their fear? Or did they know the story so well it was honestly humorous? Mumsy dearest was commenting that it must have been hard for the actors, who were trying to build up this great, strong and suspenseful performance, and then people cackling at it. Yes, cackling, the witches. And there was lots of coughing too. Admittedly, I have a cold too, but I'm only at the sneezing stage. And my sneezes are surprisingly small, so it's like they never happen. People often ask me what I'm doing when I clutch my face - that was a sneeze?

So Study Camp was great, and I made some good friends, in my loner + anti-social nature. Hi Mr. Ponder! *waves at one who may or may not be reading*

My music cycle lately has been Tetris Allstars (RIP) and Uncle Chester's Triumphant Return which Shteve calls "so catchy". I want to buy a CD. V.V, <-- attemping carrot crying face.

Alas, Adelaide, I shall not see ye again for many months yet. I was trying to figure out how much a one-two week trip would cost, and unless I camp on the streets, it looks like my life savings will be gone.

At least it will be happily done!

Hmm.. Coffee note of the post: I'd better take some to Gregor's tonight.. I think his parents only have Nestle`... Hmm.. choices, choices... (as in which type to take) And I don't know what time his 'rents are going to want to kick us out of the house, so maybe I should take the decaf and just have plenty.. Oh, full cream milk...

I picked up some nice picture books at Borders. I have $1.40 left on my gift card from Kyle.. And I got a 15% voucher on my receipt, so on Saturday when I have my optometrist appointment, I'll dash off and get.. hm: DN Angel, Hot Gimmick or Wild Act? All manga, fyi.

Oh, embarrassing camp experience that confirmed my individuality: on the first night, after study session 1 or 2, I was hanging around with a couple of leaders and campers near the cabins, and we were asking questions eg. name, school... and then 'so what do you guys do for fun?' Oh dear... I'm such a hermit recluse. First of all, people don't know what Japanese animation is (do I have to degrade myself to the translation of 'cartoons'?), and then reading is considered (IMHO) a bad thing to say (even when with nerdy others at a STUDY CAMP), especially when other people reply 'oh, I just like doing the whole party circuit thing, you know' 'oh, cool'.

-.-' How depressing.

But I'm made how I am. So there. *pokes tongue out*

You know, I could almost use Enthusiasm Police as a related text.. The Truth About Crime.. some real comments on society, there. Order from disorder... Similar problem to the Woman in Black - where's the detection? Oh, it would be classic.. Adelaide actually is all around. Well, I can use it as setting for creative writing.. ^_^

Poor lentilbeans (ooh, that's a new one!), she really needs to get out more.. ie. away from Gregor's house because Mt Colah is the place for pre-teener gangs. Sigh.. I'm sure the caffiene from earlier has worn out (I should have decaf tonight, just realised I've already had two), I must be high on happiness.

Who cares about conforming to the conventions of the syllabus definition of Crime Fiction. I don't know how famous the Enthusiasm Police will be by the time markers are working on my extension 1 english paper, but I think they won't know what the song is actually about.. ehehhhhhh.

Oh dear.

Perhaps sleep is in order? My excuse is I'm still recovering from a late session of Dead Man's Chest and the World Cup Final. Mmhmm..

The Farewell Tour

2006-07-03T12:11:00.000+10:00

Off to study camp - yay!

Coffee note of the post: haven't had one yet today (!).. Had a decaf last night.. hopefully one on the way north with Mumsy in a couple of hours.

To the beautiful person with which I had a D&M: Love you, honey. I'd never be disgusted at you or nothin'. It's like... I have a more complete picture of you now. Things make more sense, I guess. And I can see you being the person you want to be. Luf!

Why say 'luf'? Cause it makes people feel good about themselves. And sometimes they don't even know why.

And for you people who are sneakily reading this (Gregor, Sandra)... Greetings and salutations. Does anyone think that Gregor is an.. unusual name? I was just thinking that Gregor's like the George-the-champ of our times. Can you cook well, Gregor? Oh, Good Times. (Literally.. Meeting Peri at NCYC and then finding out he knows everyone in Adelaide and .. major shock. But he won't remember me, yay.) haha.. The memories.

Ah, Gregor, Gregor, Gregor. I remember our little tiffs in year four "I'm going to get into OC (Opportunity Class) and you aren't!" And now look at us. We're like that! *twists fingers*

So it's Shteve and Christianne's birthdays... I hope Tia's gangster-themed party goes ahead. Happy Birthday!

I'm going to have to say goodbye to CDs such as Sons of Korah for a week, and ask family members to record my favourite TV programmes, and frantically pack while trying to get someone else to organise World Cup Final screening... The joys of sleeping!

Must be off.. Got the munchies and need to finish packing.

*Salutes*

One Track Mind

2006-06-29T16:26:00.000+10:00

Coffee coffee coffee coffee... I've only had one today.. could have one now.. or tonight. No, that would be bad... I've already lost 6 hours sleep... coffee coffee coffee...

Finished all assessments - yeah! Until next term, anyway. But that's just major works and Uncle Ho (Ho Chi Minh). YEAH! Oh, it will all so soon be over entirely.. *cries*

Some fun news: I workshopped my Backbench Politics script with year 11s today.. They really liked it (I still do - I was laughing too), and now the pages are all scribbly with notes to edit and things to think about. Nearly nearly finished! Query: how important is it to replace 'slice' with 'cake' in this line?

...it’s usually my role to allocate a person to bake a slice or casserole each week… I always loved making my Honey Happy Heart caramel cake...

Ms Rowe seems to think it's vital and will not compromise (though I haven't directly asked her to), but, that may be just Ms Rowe. :)

Here's the picture from last time that blogger wouldn't upload:

*fingers crossed*

OOoh!! Decaffinated!! Thanks mum!!! *jumps away in glee to go and have boundless amounts*

Gaara of the Desert... and other 'Narutards'

Animania Sydney 2004

Nerd Burger

2006-06-28T15:24:00.000+10:00

Yes, I am an entire nerd.

Not only did I complete a second (long-awaited) draft of History yesterday, I am going on a study camp these holidays. Wooh! It will be great. I'll be so studied up my teachers won't know what hits them (ie. capability to retain quotes in my 16 or so exam essays). I do silly subjects, as I have often said.

Now that the work coverage is over, special shoutout of the post goes to Sandra, who may or may not be reading this. I hope I continue to pique your interest. Pique - that's a great word.

Anyone got ideas for my short story title? Considering none of you have read it, any suggestion will be fabulously great and related. Hmmm...

Contained Coffee note of the post: I've already had my two today. With the teacher's strike this morning, I had some well-needed sleep and felt thoroughly refreshed, no hurting behind the eyes or artificial alertness... And then I went to Westfield and had coffee. But it was happy. And then I had a cap. with Mumsy after school (Hi again Sandra!). Lovely. But 3:30 itis is hitting me, so I might revert to copious amounts of tea. We shall see. Hwa, awakeness for english practise/study, hwa!

Ahh Lenny, the emo ninja. I have heard several times the debate over who is better, a pirate or a ninja, and I must afiliate myself with ninjas (having been one myself), although I have been a pirate too.. Hmm... Difficult decision. And with Dead Man's Chest soon hitting Australian cinemas (the long anticipated Who's Your Daddy), I'll be yo-ho-ho-ing to A Pirates' Life For Me, as I am wont to do, while considering the amount of Naruto I still have on the computer.. Anyone have more than the first four episodes of Escaflowne, by the way? I can't remember if it would be sitting with the other 50gb Eddy gave me...

Ahh well, eating more pasta and half-procrastinating, half actually doing the work I need to do.

Pirates or Ninjas?

I should make an official poll.

One More For The Road (Before it is tomorrow)

2006-06-25T23:54:00.000+10:00

What's this, Lentil dear? You should be in bed!

And so I should. But as I have no fear of procrastination, I have well and truly left my Caesar assessment to the last hours. Yay. All-nighter party! Plus, I have full cream milk. Ohhh, yes.

Coffee note of the post: This is my... fourth today. I'm having another one now (to keep me awake and chirpy and so that I can have two tomorrow without feeling, er, too guily).

Now with the above section, I must include all caffiene (excluding the delectable chocolate) references in a contained paragraph, so as to be ignored.

What did I learn last night at Gregor's 18th? That Jimmy should never be allowed near Magic Juice/fizzy drink again, in case he really does have a heart attack, and that the John Krause Method again prevails. He says that there are three categories of guitar players: The good ones who can play other peoples' stuff, the crap, and those who play their own music. He is the third. Of course, I am the second. Though he got me to muck around with one of his songs, in the early hours of today. Mayday - two late-nighters! Plus there's that little ball game in... oh dear it's in about ..25 hours. Yay lack of sleep! I am dreading the coming nights.

It's only my own fault. And my brother can fully accuse me of hypocrisy as I was telling him off for procrastination only a week ago. Oh well. ^_^

In other news, Lenny has been digging The Tetris Allstars, and the fun tunes of Enthusiasm Police. A personal favourite is Big Bear Trap. You can't go past it. Literally - there's 20 metal teeth. *snap snap snap!* Bake Sale, in particular, is very Joel Hockey. I'm wearing TAJHM t-shirt right now. Yay for broken hearts! I'll just go off and dance to the Octopus Lovesong...

Gemma's Sunday @ Seven tonight went really smoothly, and I only made one error with the song slides, and my mother says she did not notice it. Well, enough said. *Pats Mumsy*

Oh, full cream milk is... No, not the love of my life. But close.

It's now past midnight, my time, so I need to be heading back to source analysis and happy essay proliferation.

You can excuse my mind for not making sense.

It's not mine.

This play is called "Our Town"

2006-06-19T20:32:00.000+10:00

I now have an Adelaide playlist. How rad is that!

I came down to the computer last night to get some paper and verify my Board of Studies id, and then spent 45 minutes looking up universities in Adelaide. I lead a sad life, but it's a happy life!

This week I'm attempting to take on a belt of truth: Ephesians 6 ~ Take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance...

Yes, I've had it with being kind! Ha, not at all. After working on it for two weeks, it's become more a part of me now. It's great. And I'll want to come back to it in a little while.
Jess said today that it's great we're doing these little missions, examining ourselves (know thyself) and trying to become better people. We work out our own weaknesses with relevance to our everday weeks and trials of our lives. Gradually I'll become old, wise and Fruity - it's excellent! Well, that is my goal-dream: to be super-fruity in the Spirit. Yay.

I am rapidly losing my self-given title of the Most Unfit Person I Know. Look at her run! That is: Lenny is willingly going and exercising. Eventually I'll fully brainwash myself and believe that physical activity makes you more awake that coffee. Actually, I didn't start drinking it for the caffiene until some point a few months ago. I want to find me some good decaf. It's all in my mind, anyway.

I think I shall add a social justice section of links... There are some things, such as boycotting Nestle, that I think everyone should know about and be able to readily access the information of. Ah, using prepositions at the ends of my sentences again - Lynette, have you learned nothing from Extension 2?!

I am relying on my ideal that all my fav Radelaide bands will have shows on in the two weeks or so that I plan to be holidaying later in the year.. I would like to legally get (purchase) all the music, please! People deserve rewards for their work. Hmm...

>.< Assessments, who needs them.

Not even a rhetorical question. One today, one tomorrow, one the day after. Sigh. I hope I don't get yelled at in band tomorrow.. Grr...

^_^

Year of the Papercut

2006-06-18T14:14:00.000+10:00

At the history study day at Sydney Uni yesterday I received so many papercuts (and I scratched over one with my nail today, incidentally), so many papercuts that it looks like Wolverine managed to shrink himself and attack my hands. I'd take a photo, but it might be a bit gruesome for your oh so innocent eyes. Heh..

Church was good this morning - I wans't really listening to John speak although he had some good things he was saying - I thought about RAOK plans and I was all happy and ready to leave and go out into the world before the service was half over. My brother, Jimmy and I have a little triplet of studying-but-not for this week. It'll be great. I'm nearly sort of nearly done on the drama director's seminar. Memorisation is for suckers! And it turns out that my speech I did for the last Extension 1 assessment is 900 words, so if I just add readings and more ponderings and genre theory (oh! it's an hour essay.. hmm), I'll be fine. And the drama written exam is a joke, as always. I'll be fine.

It's annoying, not being motivated to do things >.<

Know what else is great? Full cream milk. Home made GJ's, a dash of chocolate, and oh, that full cream milk. De-lish!

Gregor commented that I'm the most coffee-addicted person he knows. Not necessarily the most-drinking, because he knows many people who drink more than I do (my maximum is two a day, and I fight internally over keeping it at one and convincing myself in and out of having more), but apparently I talk about coffee and fret over being addicted more than any one he knows. Interesting. I wonder if I'm annoying in that way. *sips more*

I'm trying to finding that hilarious Draco: Got Milk? pic... Not prevailing...

Ok, fine, this pic is a combined Daniel Radcliffe and Tom Welling. I like neither of them, but I think it looks more like Harry.

The Big Whinge Festival

2006-06-17T16:48:00.000+10:00

Every so often, I am reminded how different I am from other people.

This is not a rant about how much teenage angst fills my life, it is from a perspective of calm ponderance and waves of tension that arise when I consider myself.

In honesty, I do get jealous of other people for who they are. Last night I was observing Tia and Tegan, and half wishing I could be like them. And they're a pair of my greatest and 'closest' friends. I don't wish I could be them - it's more a matter of wishing I could form those sorts of friendship bonds... I've never had a human best friend. And my experiences of imaginary friends - they're not normal imaginary friends... My english short story is about the line between reality and having an imaginary friend - I tried to explain it to someone once, and then realised that my concept of imaginary friend was completely different (and incoherent) to the majority of the population's.

I'm naturally a loner, a true blue INTJ Meyers-Briggs personality type. You should do that test, if you haven't. It's great. It feels nice to learn about who you are. Something else that really made me happy was The Power of One - The Loner's Manifesto: it was promising to be a great read. I felt like hugging that book, in a way. I had to return it before it became overdue. It's on my post-HSC reading list, don't worry. And I intend to own my own copy.

There are parts of me that are normal geek, normal nerd... And this is why I have to find a nice fellow insane pal if I begin a BA next year... But every time I've had the desire etc. for a 'best friend', it's all gone down the drain. I remember in the humble days of year 8, when Fiona first joined our group - I had great notions of her, Jess and I being a triplet of friends. Well, I barely need to say that such events did not happen. It was a trio, without me. Suchu, from you I am expecting a sympathetic comment, but I do not want it.

I'm happy with who I am. I wouldn't want to change myself. Gregor, in .. oh, I can't remember the acronym - he said that he didn't think he'd ever be able to understand me, and that I'm very complex. It was nice to have that confirmed. And be appreciated, at the same time. I'm not sure if I understand myself, even.

It's all very interesting, but it does depress me at times. How are other people able to have (and yes, be hurt by) these great and often lasting friendship-bonds - and I'm not? I'm a loner, I'm different, that's why, would be the simple answer. But sometimes I want those things. Maybe I'm a bit of a Paul (in a different way). In some ways, it makes sense, in others it's incomprehendible.

So this cycle of mrrhhhk-ness comes around every so often, and apart from feeling miserable, I can take the haughty "I am better than thou, oh so much wiser and superior" attitude to deal with it. Which leaves me feeling more sad, and all. Hm.

So, it feels unfair. But I did mention before that I've never had this earthly friend... But then there's Jesus. And everything's okay. ^_^

Yeah, so sometimes I get down, and wish I was more girly (although I would prefer to still detest materialism), or more chatty, but I like being me. And it's fun when I go insane with Bob or someone and we can laugh together, or I can make coffee for someone and be there to listen and answer questions, whatever they feel like.

My 'thing' (little task) for this and last week was kindness. I've been doing small nice things, but then I might bite out... and then I get annoyed at myself. Often it's just sarcastic criticism of someone else (or the jokes of Dr. T), and I apologise profusely (then the person wonders why I'm doing so), but I'd rather be a kinder person. Ah! So what I need is another me - ohhh yes. Heh.

One of my previous sayings of the week was "If I ran the world", this week it was "I've nearly finished all my major works - I can nearly see the light at the end of this tunnel called the HSC!", perhaps it will become (only jokingly, of course), "If only everyone else was me."

In jest, I say.

Oh, and for this ranting I can blame hunger and coffee. Oh, why not chuck Spider solitaire in there as well. But I guess now I've talked about something more 'real' in this frivolous blog, so there *pokes tongue out*. I hope you're not too offended.

Shameless plug of the post: Scarborough Fair

I've also added The View to my music link sidebar. Don't try and attack me by saying it's not a real sidebar, you html 133tists!

Slogan bars

2006-06-15T18:26:00.000+10:00

We're about to cover the assassination of Julius Caesar in Ancient. Fabulous. Yeah, I reckon he was alright. Silly little Antony. :)

My love of Civilization II continues! I'm nearly finished a Normal sized map on Prince level. Deity, he we come! It's old school, but it's addictive. And I haven't been distracted by Spider Solitaire lately as I haven't been on the newer computer. It actually makes for great homework progress.

I am starting to see the light at the end of this tunnel called year 12. I've nearly finished my major works (despite the minimum amount of time for drama group performance), and things are looking quite up. Oh, you know who's cool? Kris. She's great. Luf!

I saw a few seconds of channel ten news... It will be interesting to see what John Heard (DREADNOUGHT) says about that... Ahh, dinner. Lovely! *dances off* Food, food food food. ^^

One Hit Wonders are my speciality

2006-06-13T00:47:00.000+10:00

Another near all-nighter and I've finished (sort of) another major work! Homemade GJs coffee, some U2 and the recently loved (and overplayed) Passenger Seat - DCFC and some new comfy trackpants - it all makes for some great mind juices. Oh, and I completed that dreaded Ancient assessment too. Not too bad, I reckon.

Ooh, with a proper heading and character list, Backbench Politics looks great! I've had the most fun with this script (as compared with the writing of my other major works) - it makes me laugh as I reread it, and remember Jess's great rendition of Grandma/Madam Geneva ("They named the peace conferences after me!") It's a few pages short - I checked and the minimum is 15, so it'll be alright after some tweaking. I want to do another workshop of it. I probably owe it to my original actors (excluding myself) to get them to do it, but I'd really like the splendid year 11s to give it a shot. There's six people in their class too - perfect!

As for some interesting reading, I decided to become more philosophical and pondering rather than just recount (the worst level of essays. bleh. reminds me of upcoming assessments)... So, a list of what constitutes good music/that which I like:

I can (attempt to) sing along
Varied repetoire - some hard core, some easy listening, some just beautiful
Fun (think Queen's Bicycle Race - ha! Did you see on the news those nude environmentalist riders? Fat Bottomed Girls all the way...)
Quality - this means having a level of talent or skill that blends with the sound.
Lyrics? I guess I think it's good to have music that means something. The old "if you could write one song that would epitomise your life...."

Yes, and now for bed. Yay for morning classes today/tomorrow! Oh, aren't public holidays just delightful while they're on. I was told not to watch the Football, even though it's already tomorrow.

You Can Love Yourself Too

2006-06-02T02:22:00.000+10:00

It's not quite 6am, it's not even 3.

My plans for a real all-nighter remain unachieved. Sure, I could actually hand my History Extension Major Work draft tomorrow actually.. polished, but that would defeat the purpose of a first draft, wouldn't it? Yes, and the three-oh hour is the 'my eyes will be all red and scratchy tomorrow if I don't get to shut them' time.

Just felt like saying post-midnight, coffee induced greetings, especially to Anthony, if you're reading *waves*. The impending social weekend plans are quite hectic, as movie times for X3 are convoluted against us (ie. around Carmen's flute lesson). I excuse myself if I don't make any sense, by the way.

Definately pub crawling to the 24 hour Maccas tomorrow, wait, today night.. Look out! Oh no, ohhh yes.

I managed to skim read two 400+ page books on Mussolini Today Tonight, so feel proud of me. I do.

Favourite tunes of the times are on My Space, which I was unable to fight for any longer. It's like my friendship with Kyle: a love-hate relationship without the love. I don't like it, it doesn't like me (professing this dislike through inability to operate), we're all good. Am I still devious and crafty? Oh yes.

Sigh. We'll all scatter like yesterday's breadcrumbs before pidgeons. *Imagines the outcome(s) of that.* Ew.

Palate pirouette

2006-05-28T15:26:00.000+10:00

And the foreign language music of the day is: Vega.

It's pretty and fun, and and I don't even know what language it is, or who it is. Yay.

I've had my first few legal drinks now, having been to a 21st and an 18th in a week. I was very responsible. Don't think I'm being sarcastic. I'm a very responsible kinda gal. Other people weren't (thinks of Kyle).

*grooves to trippy Vega bass lines*

I've taken to reading Dreadnought recently (link on right) - I used to just scan. Interesting stuff. I don't know what to think.

The X-3 event is here! Carmen's being doing her prep work (watching the 1st and 2nd movies on the appropriate weekends), and I've been downtrodding Brett Ratner at all available moments. We have different training schemes... However if the Plan goes well, my weekend shall be as follows:

X-men 3
Encore (musical Dave is in)
Devotion
Courtyard Cafe (Woo - our band Soul Impact!)

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Church
Kari: Da Vinci Code
Kari: Birthday dinner

Wahhh!! Busy! Lucky I don't have assessments NEXT week... Well, it doesn't look like that much, but transportation+timing+eating will be.. complicated. If we could get a morning session of X3 that would be better.. Yes, yes...

Mr. Tristan Wallace is telling me I should be smacking Dave around so he is... less worrying. Well then, Mr. "I collaborate, not cheat", I say no. *mutters under breath and then is reminded of the bountiful shortfalls of Brett Ratner*

Whoa, look out! The tim tams in my household have been opened.. And as I have a new addiction to them, it is excellent.. yes.. And I need coffee.. ooh, afternoon tea time.....

-.-' I wish I could digress.

Poor Lenny is a little over the weather and will not be able to continue discussing her latest Life Ventures as she might just collapse. Yes, let's just blame it on tiredness, dears. After Amie's 18th last night she went to Tegan's and had a chick's night with hot chocolate, popcorn and (a much younger-looking) Hugh Grant.

Mauvais voyage!

Ginger Ail

2006-05-23T19:56:00.000+10:00

I've been ill, for your knowledge pleasure, and I've been on some ginger tablets that are supposed to sooth my stomach. Unfortunately, they've made my water bottle stink. I only really like ginger biscuits. So any swill from my reliable companion now reminds me that I'm ill. ^_^

I am managing not to procrastinate! Well, I've done some absolutely useless (as I've now discovered) notemaking for a Modern assessment that's due Friday.

Another discovery is the unavoidable perpetuation of my love of Radelaide. Browsing through the 'friends' of the increasingly invading My Spaces, I've come across some lovely bands..

I can imagine myself as the most prestigious local critic "refreshingly different" and "implictly seductive sounds".. er... For a distraction, why not check out this "What HP Slash Plot Device Will Fix Your Story?" quiz? Err.. you'd better not. It's a lark, for those not easily scarred.

So, great tones and tunes have been added in an illustrious new section of music My Space links, and I'm tempted to title it 'Adelaide Only'.

I am currently loving Eight Day Weekend's Row Row Row and my brother, after reading Jonno's Eight Day Weekend classic, thoroughly enacted 'LOL'. But he agreed in my thinking that EDW o.0 sound excellent. Look, I must really like the music, I'm already using acronyms.

Oooh! Must be writing some Backbench Politics - workshopping it tomorrow with my beautiful actresses (Jess, Fi, Megan.. er.. Bob can't make it).. That'll make Rowe happy *shudders and avoids*.

I hope you've now found something more entertaining to do... isn't Spider Solitaire deliciously addictive?!

Quick With The Bowl

2006-05-18T14:39:00.000+10:00

Faster than ER's Dr Kovac can hold a bowl for vomit over your lap, I have managed to post the photos!

And I did it a couple of days ago! I was up a bit late the night of my last post, waiting for my father to do all the processing he feels is necessary... However I find that the quality of the photos is not that great - if anyone wishes to have pristine image-ness, just holler 'til you're hoarse and I finally hear you.

And I haven't posted hysterically witty comments on all of them, mostly as I have difficulty with sight and efficiency (don't bother asking for the long-winded explanation that makes sense). So, hop on over to Lenny's 18th Photos (link on right), take a gander, and laugh at, or with, as the case may be, all those who dressed up ridiculously 80s on the night.

Post Update: Also adding to photos with 'Friends' and the elusive China Tour photos! Yes, pull out your heralding trumpets.

A Fitting End To My Life

2006-05-15T20:02:00.000+10:00

If you thought the above title was an impending suicide note, you may or may not be sorely disappointed.

IMPENDING 18TH PHOTOS!!!

Yes that's right folks, roll up, roll up and have the laugh of your life! My cheeks hurt a lot after grinning at everyone who came in the hall where my party was held. It was great. The most fantastic thing was that most of the costumes were clothes actually worn during the eighties.. Highlights were Kristina's .. one piece height-of-fashion out on the town suit dress thing! Also, Chloe still retaining emo standards, and I giggled all night at the likes of Carmen.

There was so much 80s music that even Eight Day Weekend similes can't comprehend it. I don't think we got through half the mix CDs I had, and then James aka. Annatar Black gave me an 80s CD as a pressie, and Bryan felt it necessary to bring his collection.

A lovely bunch of us did a pub crawl (sans the 'pub') to Maccas (the only one in our area that's open past 2 am) to delight in toasting of coffee and slurping of chocolate sundaes. Mighty thanks to the parentals and associated adults for the organisation and help they provided. Also thank you to everyone who was there and who couldn't be there (and wished that they were) - I hope you had fun! (Or are crying now because you couldn't) Umm.. Yeah.

Carmen gave me a lovely build-your-own lightsaber, which is one of the COOLEST THINGS EVER, and we can stage a pretty little Phantom Menace battles as we have three lightsabers altogether now. Ha - Darth Maul I shall be! Wait... that means die I must! *goes off and lets self be sliced by Vader*

So - photos shall be added soon, hopefully I won't procrastinate on that account (I am still yet to put up China photos) and for those gazzles and guys who brought their flashy cameras on the night - please send me yo pics so we can have a wonderful collection.

Of the conversation starters stuck to the walls on the night, who got the below?

Conversation Starter no. 63
Passionate hatred can give meaning and purpose to an empty life. --- Eric Hoffer
(Oh, tis beautiful! My favourite! *reminds her of all her favourite evil characters*)

Conversation Starter no. 79
Don't give a woman advice: one should never give a woman anything she can't wear in the evening. – Oscar Wilde

I wanted Brybry to read this one so I can defend my addiction...

Conversation Starter no. 7787
Tobacco, coffee, alcohol, hashish, prusic acid, strychnine, are weak dilutions: the surest poison is time. --- Emerson

I had these two used on me. Hehehh..

Conversation Starter no. 14

Hi, the voices in my head told me to come over and talk to you.

Conversation Starter no. 203

Are you accepting applications for your fan club?

But a classic is:

Conversation Starter no. 10001
“This tour will be bigger than bigness itself. It will make Ben Hur look like the Muppets.” – Roger Taylor, Queen

Feel free to use them on your friends (or strangers...eek)!

All in all the party was a wonderful experience, and now I am still recovering while expectantly waiting for Tristan to demand his free coffee (or hugs from those who want them) at the most inconvenient moment.

This voucher is valid for
ONE FREE HUG at ANY TIME
Redeemable from Lenny on
presentation of this voucher

This voucher is valid for
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And feel free to steal them and print them out and try to use them on me, you devious and crafty minions.

The Happiness Test

2006-05-10T19:35:00.000+10:00

IQ Tests, Johari Windows - now we need to take such prolific online quizzes to know how happy we are?

Interesting.

People are looking forward to this party of mine on Saturday, and so am I. Exciting.

Mother's Day is this Sunday, for those of you who haven't been aware of the sales at the shops lately, and this year I've organised a sentimental little something for my mummy dearest. We might go to lunch/dinner of some sort. Hehh.. *pulls out entertainment book vouchers for a discounted meal*

People have commented on my family, saying that we're all quiet.. or all rather comfortable with each other. It makes sense to me - that's how we are. But over coffee (McCafe - how desperate can I be? :P ) yesterday I think it was, my mother and I were discussing types of people. She was saying how she doesn't.. well, that she often perceives assertiveness as aggressiveness, that's why she's never promoted it in our family or anything. Yes, we are a quiet family and all comfortable with each other and know where the personal space boundaries are... heh.. But there's never yelling or anything like that. Hmm.. that's why I sometimes on China Tour found teachers, etc, frustrating...

Some exciting events of today!: EXO at lunchtime - we're starting a thing this term about God's promises.. Becky did an intro on that.. bit of an eye-opener. Also went shopping with the mother for some party gear.. Namely 80's Karaoke DVDs!!!! Yes, it shall be all painful .. I've already checked them out. Random "beautiful" girls that have nothing to do with the songs (although filmed in Australia).. although! Surprisingly good back up music - including even some vocals! When I go off to karaoke with friends, the songs are not in english (crazy otakus that we are) and it's usually a one or two note high pitched keyboard synth noise.. So it shall be slightly more pleasant.

Tomorrow night is FESTY-VALE`! Lots of fun and games! Oh, and Michael Jackson's Thriller will be played at my party, so all us prefects will be able to dance the night away.. hehehh..

Better do that mother's day plan before she returns from supermarket-ing.. Aw...

Please stalk me, I'm lonely.

2006-05-09T18:18:00.000+10:00

Yay, whopping record - this is my fiftieth post.

Tonight shall be a busy night, whipping up more of my drama script so I can have something to show Ms. Rowe tomorrow (I was considering skiving off the appointment.. she's done it so many times.. heh), and pretending I haven't lost my History Extension logbook and making up a synopsis for THAT major work.. Officially, or un-so, I now have 4 major works as we've started HSC group performance for drama. Our idea is fab. I'm with Bob and Jess, and of course our dramatic chemistry is.. classic and classy.
People have been talking about the costumes that they will wear to my party (I am keeping my own a secret - although I predict that the likes of fashionable Tegan will be the bridesmaid that shows up the bride's gown).. Particularly the males have been asking for advice. I think Michael got a little scared after he did some googling... heheh..

Thanks for the list of 80's songs - I think you've got your own mix CD now, Jonno.
Something for interest is the following: Michael Jackson and Freddie Mercury: Comparisons Revealed My favourite part was that they both at some point in their lives wore white vests. Can you imagine!

I couldn't be bothered reading all of it, but thoroughly entertaining.

On the train home today, there was a young woman sitting opposite us, and at one point she looked up from reading, sort of staring into space. I do that sometimes, when I'm pondering what a character has just done. A little while later (I think while Jess was getting out at her stop), she looked up again, across at Jess, and then seemed to stare at me until she realised I was looking right back at her. I'm not sure if it was my strange (yet clearly stylish) mufti-day outfit. I wore my bought-in-China black fake fake converse shoes and my bought-in-China black and red stripy socks. Yay. Well, it was one of those odd occurences that I thought I should note to myself for future reference.

*ponders* I hope when I go to Kinokuniya sometime within the month, Aidan is still working there, hopefully again laughing to himself behind the info desk.. Ha ha!! (I think this is an 'in joke' of which only I am 'in')

Crazy, not charismatic.. am I.

Keep yo eye out for: Les Respectables.. They seem like a fun French band. ^_^

Archive Monkeys

2006-05-07T12:14:00.000+10:00

Last night, while at Courtyard Cafe, I got semi-pals Shane and Bryce to help me out. Favourite 80s songs? Or rather, a collection of essential 80s.. So I am asking you, the reader, to please contribute! I know, 'I only lived 5 years of the 80s', but really, you were dancing to all sorts of crazy tunes before the age of three. Anyway, once you pop you can't stop (as we found last night), and even on the way home us 90s kids were trying to think of other bands that were either excellent, one hit wonders, or quite terrible. So please, contribute to this wonderful cause.

Shane and Bryce's Essential Eighties Selection Mix

And thus ensues: an honourary invite to all youse in Radelaide - if 'twere possible, you could most certainly turn up at my 18th birthday party. There will be party bags. :P

My signed Bryce EP:

On the music frony, I'll be reattempting downloads of the Tetris Allstars while craving more pizza like the slice I just snacked on. And I've been playing some Snow Patrol and Beck myself, having fun seeing how far I can push the volume and gain on my baby amp before the mother stares in a glaring manner over the top of the newspaper. Yay.

Backbench Politics

2006-05-06T14:50:00.000+10:00

I. am. a. turkey.

Greetings and salutations, judges and overseers of my life!

Actually, life is happy and beautiful at the moment.

Aside from the brain overload. I am walking intertextuality, and it's painful. I can't focus on one thought or be my usual potato, non-participatory self.. The head itches with spiralling wisdom and connections and parallels, and then I just laugh to myself because walking in Bondi at night and coughing up my last good kidney reminds me of... Well, many a thing.

The title of this post is in reference to my drama major work script (yes I can't let a post go by without mentioning the painfulness which is called 'school')... That's the name I have been using. I thought it was witty, and I liked it. But it has nothing to do with politics. Well, perhaps the politics of life. Crazy (politically incorrect) characters meet on a parkbench. Bob, Jess and I are performing a bit of it for Festivale (prefect organised student performance night jazzo).. The ending we've decided for it (we need an ending for this excerpt) is that the fired!Jenkins turns out to be oldbutnot!Grandma's long lost son, she nearly has a heart attack, homeless!Smith is left on stage and.. goes back to sleep? I'll have to go get the notes I made.. I think it shall be quite hilarious, and for those who remember those Proposal days (only last year's dancing), you'll know that we can make quite a trio. We're looking forward to it. And it's great, because I'm supposed to workshop my script a few times..

Last night I saw a yay! King Lear in the style of Feudal Japan (thus the Bondi at night-ing).. Nice and wacky. With my analysing/intertextuality brain overload, and extreme tiredness, I was worried about not being able to enjoy it.. I managed to watch it from the POV of a drama gal, not an english student.. so all was well. Though I was twitching at not knowing the symbolism of the white material over-hanging...

Ok, still twitching *pokes eyebrow*.. And the coffee did nothing for me last night. The first Gloria Jeans I had back in Australia made my hands shake delightfully, but perhaps I was just too overwhelmingly tired last night. And I was feeling a little ill and headached (I've taken drugs every day for the past few days >.<) but International Roast and afternoon sunlight seem to pair off together wonderfully. Maybe because they're both just so terrible! :D

Oh my. Do you see the pattern, do you? All I talk about is school *shudders and then glances over to ancient history homework* and coffee.. I crave an Irish Creme.. And Gloria Jeans had a special of the week - Emerald Dream beans.. Which is basically irish creme.. oh, delicious mouth-watering fake alcoholic goodness! (I have not yet done something 18-ish) But as I don't have a coffee grinder, buying beans would be a little silly. Unless they were magic beans. I wish I had a cow.

*hits head* See - walking painful intertextuality overload! The most painful thing is, I think, that no one else is operating on the the same waves, so I walk around mumbling to myself and then hitting my head (hoping I can erase enough brain cells) and glad+sad no one else can understand.. Oh, I wouln't wish this on anybody.

And why am I a turkey? Because I forgot to collect my extension 2 journal/logbook from teacher straight after school.. Making the assessment on Monday near-impossible. I got called a turkey. I have now learned to always turn back.

*skips away and then falls flat on her face*

Here, Forever.

2006-05-03T16:16:00.000+10:00

After updating my lovely Socially Democratic Nation State, I have set down the Plan of finishing my first draft of my short story. The finished story will count for about .. oh, 100% of the final mark, so I would like it to be well-written. ^_^

Today Bob and I were discussing the legalities of downloading, and Bob said "I don't even think of it as illegal anymore".. Well, I mainly leech things I wouldn't actually be able to buy eg. fan scanlations of manga that hasn't been released in english or Australia yet, and some things I don't even know if I could purchase unless I went to the country myself and hunted the item out. And then we have my 'try before I buy' random downloading of some music that turns out to be a popular modern US band that I of course never knew of. Such is the life of I.

And while I am lamenting the breakup of the Tetris Allstars (as if they could go without a mention), I am further lamenting the horrible anti-virus software that prevents me from downloading the songs at all. Most frustrating.

My left ear has a slight red-pain and burning sensation, as I got two new piercings in it straight after school this afternoon. So that's a lovely 5 holes in my ears altogether - yay! And it seems my once proclamation ('I'll never get my lobes done!') is surviving the apocolypse.

Today whilst walking home from school I came upon a boy. Not imaginary, real this boy was. He wore a cap, was in school uniform with his bag slightly behind him and he was sitting on the pathway of the highway playing with leaves. I asked him if he was alright and he said 'yeah'. Interesting experience for later inspiration. I think he was waiting for someone to give him a lift. Oh well.

And I can't expect too much of my writing this arvo as I've already had one coffee today and want to wait until I really want another. I've been chugging down the teevee snacks. I thought I'd only have a couple. Ahh, but that is what chocolate does to you!

Lapis Lazuli

2006-05-02T18:27:00.000+10:00

I have hit 5, 999 words. My story is nearly finished! Yatta!

Oh, so first day back at school - w00t! Err, I mean... "Life. Don't talk to me about life."

'Twas fine. Of course, I now feel even more vastly superior as I have passed that day on which I became under full manipulation of the government.

It's nice to see at school my friends from other grades (ie. from China Tour). They make me smile, and of course I like smiling. So give me a wave, unless I am skulking from one history room to another (as I am wont to do, as I have three classes in the one corridor) and I look like I haven't had a caffiene hit in over a week.

Actually, this heroin/cocaine/whatever Bryan's latest name for my drug is - I've been having quite a bit lately. So I've finally broken into my International Roast. Though I noticed some new Moccona in the fridge, which I can only presume is my mother's. The silly, uneducated-at-Black-Stump woman.

And she has made lasagne for dinner. So I shall be back later. Luf ^_^

Like a Foojin

2006-05-01T19:01:00.000+10:00

So... *struts in, tapping her chin with a finger, waiting for something exciting to happen*

Yes, I am just looking for a distraction from school work!

This is very bad. My life seems to be spiralling further and further inwards in a vortex of homework. How annoying. I think something important I managed to learn whilst in China was patience. There was often some waiting to be done, and I got frustrated at other people who couldn't be patient. I also got frustrated with teachers who were stressed and shouting (I kept muttering 'just relax')... But I think I'm more willing to live and let be. I guess it also depends on circumstance. aeiouy123 is not on mIRC at the moment, so no BECK manga downloady for me! I cry quietly to myself... And there were a couple of other people who had at least volume 11 (what I am wanting), but obviously those American gazzles are off partying somewhere.

I'm coffee-ing myself up - I aim it to be an earlier night. So if I fit all my procrastinating into this half hour, I should spurt out 1000 words soon easily. Sigh. Suchu - you've volunteered your services in some respects. I'll probably send you my short story when it's closer to due date and ask for HARSH CRITIQUING! None of this constructive criticsm, I say, when there is flaming to be done! Actually, *ponders*, flaming usually consists of no comments that would help a writer in any way better her story... Well, to whomever wishes to receive my (edge off terrible) story and constructively criticise harshly (not allowed to be nice, Suchu), just let me know. I wrote the beginning of my story yesterday. I thought that was the hardest part. But I'm now left with writing the ending. I don't care about this week's extension I'm being given, I want to finish it now, please!

And really all I want to do is write more of 'Redemption'.... ^_^

Oh, and the crazy gal that I am, I managed to include both Radelaide and Shibuya in some crime fiction english homework - hwa!

See, there I go talking about school again... *hums and waits for something exciting*

I have been playing the Beatles' 'I've Got a Feeling' (BECK - Mongolian Chop Squad style), and trying to come in time for the bridge... It's fun. One day I'll be singing and playing three chords! I recall my Queen - live at the Bowl DVD..

Soon I'll be rummaging for a Dreamtree CD and my fingers will be dancing away on the keyboard...

*grumbles under her breath like the hag she is*

Old, old I say!

*wrath*

Ah my back! *keels over*

I chocolate you

2006-04-30T11:23:00.000+10:00

I am all drugged and coffee-ed up and must write 2000 words of Extension 2 today as I missed writing my 1000wordsaday!1000wordsaday! yesterday....

I've been through all my China photos with my brother and last night my parents... I had to use my itinerary to think for me as my brain wouldn't function and I can't remember the names of places very well. I also talked to my Nana on the phone last night, and I said thank you for the birthday letter card and she reinforced that I needed to send her a synopsis of the trip. :)

Today is EXO camp reunion! Actually I really have no idea what's happening - I read the email from Gregor whilst in China and thus I don't remember the details.. But I have a few hours between now and then. Also tonight is Sunday @ Seven, which is very exciting and I have no idea what's happening (which is nice) and this is the second time I'm not directly involved in some way. o.0 I may yet be asked by Alex to do something, though... We never know...

I'm in a very serving mood. I feel like doing stuff for people. It's great.

But it means I don't want to do my short story... In fact I really don't like my story at the moment. >.< I don't see it as being very.. mature.. and I want to scrap and rewrite but at the same time can't be bothered.

This reminds me of all the little people on China tour who complained of 'assignments' they had to do.. pah! Nothing compared to the sole year 12, I! (Mr. James Taylor doesn't count of course) *twitches* I do stupid subjects.. Three major works.. which should be completed by the end of the holidays.. ie. in two days.... *twitch*

All I want to do is read BECK manga. *happy sigh* ^_^ And I'm telling my brother he should grow facial hair like Chiba. :D Stephen has recently (while I was away) shaven off his beard so now he is a stranger and I am still shocked my his young, hairless chin. I'll show a before and after photo. Yes, the shock.

Ok, caffiene has hit me now.. Lenny is happy ^_^

-.-'

I'm not addicted, no... I can stop at anytime. ^^

*hits self over head then stares at screen for several hours, attempting to do school work*

The Lenovo Strikes Back

2006-04-29T13:23:00.000+10:00

I have returned! Hmm.. Really it should be Return of the Lentil, but as I have a new nickname (Lenovo) from Hewlett Packard (I think) advertising across China, I believe that can work for now.

I did have a fabulous time in China, and I will be slowly but surely posting up my 400+ photos on somewhere suitable (eg. yahoo photos). I think it will take a long time anywhere. And I love to laboriously input witticisms that are hilarious to only I. And for Bodhi's information, I only bought two pairs of shoes. ^_^

But I like my new socks.

*cough* It's difficult for me to just talk about the trip - you'd need to get me in a conversation and I would say "oh, and this one time, on band tour in China..."

However, some brief overall comments: it is very different to Australia. I don't know if anyone who's reading this (aside from HGHS associated people who went with me) have been to China, but there are a couple of things.. eg. There were two days in which you could vaguely see some blue sky. There seem to be no road rules. And...

See, I'm already bad about this 'telling tales of China' thing. Comments on the photos I put up will give a more complete tale.

And I am very reassured by Jonno's posting, mostly as that shock Battery Kids news has been patted down to truth.

As my head is quite gluggy from a cold and still needing sleep (although I got more than 12 hours last night @.@), I shall endeavour to write my 1000 words a day of major works. *sigh* ^_^

The Battery Kids in China v. II

2006-04-12T16:23:00.000+10:00

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In loco parentis

2006-04-10T12:01:00.000+10:00

I'm on a post-exam low, sitting lazily eating dorritos and half-drinking my watered down orange cordial, not wanting to work on my major work (see title). I should be chunking out roughly 2000 words today. Bleh! ^_^

So while I'm trying to access some good J-rock, waiting to call my mum and check that she's survived the plane back from QLD (and making sure she's got a safe taxi driver), I'm happily procrastinating.

Something to check out: various albums of Derrick and Eddy-kun's trip to JAPAN: http://spaces.msn.com/derrickkwan/

*whimpers* I want to go to Shibuya....

However, me getting employment is a long way off, especially as I'm refusing to work in retail ever again *shudders and remains scarred for life from Targe`t* this little dream of travelling shall have to wait.

Hmm.. Dorritos quite addictive... But they're only here to sate my coffee hunger. And I shall be making myself some more pasta lunch soon. Yay for pretending I can cook! Oh my, I've eaten half the container's worth..

The most exciting news with Lenny at the moment is her excitement regarding going to China. Something else she must do today is make the easter bookmarks... She'll continue to refer to herself in third person, and she doesn't remember any of the itinerary or when her flight is to leave Oz or many of the places she's playing at. Oh, plan achieved - talking to Mr James Taylor at rehearsal yesterday. Maybe we can buddy it up on the plane flights and comiserate over pains of final years of high school so I can avoid .. little people.. *eyebrow twitches* At least I'm not rooming with any of them. *shudders* Nah, I'm sure after the first few days they'll calm down from their little-people excitement that pervades all eardrums. ^_^

*Waves to Suchu* Hi lovely. Ancient history exam went fun, I think it was your luck that helped. And the memorisation of two names: Helvius Sabinus and Lucretius Salinus Valens. However, I only got to put one of them in my essay (I worked out last night that my final exams will include 17 essays! @.@.. I do stupid subjects >.<) so this means I'm estimating 50% mark. The deal was if I memorised and used both of them, I'd pass with flying colours. If was fun to repeat them in silly Roman + Gladiator voices. Go on, try saying them out loud too.

OK, fine.

^_^ Puff luf!

My Own Private Idaho

2006-04-05T12:57:00.000+10:00

You know how Lenny is, procrastinating on studying for exams, leaving exam speech-writing until the day before, downloading anime music and manga that she will actually buy later when she can be bothered to go to the city and use her new Kinokuniya membership card...

I should not have staying in bed this morning.

There was a full 3 hours worth of productive queue-waiting and attemptive speech writing! Translation: Noir watching, as I'm going to use that anime as a related text for english Crime Fiction study.

Ahh well.. And now I'm feeling ill. Last time I felt like this was Saturday (I've been amazingly stable since), and I had a migraine, I think due to watching a screen for too long, and then I ended up throwing up etc etc... So today while checking out extras of My Own Private Idaho, I 'watched' the audio only stuff.

*dances randomly to BECK music she's just gotten her speakers on*

Unfortunately it seems to be producing the same effects... No vomitting yet. But it make me not want to eat lunch. Bleh >.<

Oooh.. bass... so.. good.. *drools at shirtless Taira-kun* heheheh...

Well, aside from still deliberating if I'm going to a proper post of something that makes my blood boil, I'll perhaps sleep, get this haircut I'm booked in for, do a bit of speech writing and maybe some ext. 2. Yay! :)

N.O.O. - No Other Option

2006-03-25T12:18:00.000+11:00

While I have been earnestly watching Beck and discovering I like alphabetising my anime dvd collection, I've also been dreading exams and playing my new [WOODEN!] clarinet!
I haven't taken it to band(s) yet, as you're supposed to work your way up with playing time. First practise 5 minutes, then 10, then 15, and another five every time. And since band rehearsals are 1 hour and 1.5 hours, I need to at least be up to 45 minutes. And for China Tour the longest performances are 50+ minutes.

Ooh, random excitement about going to China! *dances*

And I not so subtley hinted to my mother about the possibility of a digital camera for my birthday - one I can take overseas with me. So expect lots of lovely photos. And I can probably post in here for updates, too; it depends on how long I have in an internet cafe/the hotel.

Apologies for not posting sooner - I was very fired up about something that made me angry, but I didn't have access to the computer then. And when I was going to do that I wasn't in the right mood - so la de da I didn't post.

I'm currently freeing the computer of about 50gb of anime that's been sitting around happily for a while.

Secretly I'm just wanting to burn more Beck for happy tv watching, but apparently if I also free up 15% of computer space, I might be able to sucessfully create those funky schmunky menus that stuffed up before. (I can't believe I wrote 'funky schmunky'... And I'm thinking I didn't spell it correctly. Ahh, Suchu, your influence has deepened.)

Now while Stephen (currently on the other computer) constantly listens to my cd of Sons of Korah, I wail over the stupid speaker that keeps falling over for me. Sigh. *wraths*

Oh, and random note: Tristan (not the one who doesn't exist) is cool. ^_^

...
I'm not even able to comment on The Battery Kids related shock!news, so I won't. I'm sure all will be well. (ie. me being the only one that's dying)

!!!! How can you think a homeless man is a politician?!! ARGH!! <-- I am having constant wailings about how Timothy Daly (pro script writer and teacher and other things) read my script wrong... Oh well.. *sigh*

Jazz hours on Radio Adelaide are my happy drama script writing times, so if anyone else actually listens to it, I probably am as well.

Sigh.. Stupid nonsensical meaningless posts....

:D

Don't worry, self, you're just insane. *pats head*

Passenger Seat

2006-03-13T20:07:00.000+11:00

Who wants more friends?

Apparently, everyone does. Or should. Or something.

*entranced dance to DCFC* ^_^ Preeetty! I'm not sure if that's a proper reaction to their music, but it's mine.

I've been considering plotting out some Hack Sign songs, but as the piano is currently unreachable, that probably won't be soon.

Drama assessment was fine, I think I did 'well', but you never know... And the more I think about my english one, the more trepidation I feel about getting it back. Ahh, it's all just practise for the HSC, no stress, 10% here, 15% there.. Grr.. I would hate myself if I were someone else. ^_^ la, la la...

I like it when some of my favourite authors update. But they haven't. :

And while Rachael was referring to such... things as 'Snarry' today, I was thinking of how I haven't read fanfics for such a long time.. I've done such things as removed myself from yahoo community emails for Aspen's A Year Like None Other because I'm just not interested. And it was becoming like spam. Never read them. I think joining up there with my gmail account is what allowed me to receive insightful messages about men's health and boosting medications, though. *scowl*

This week I am trying to keep no record of wrongs. This is particularly difficult, as it's something I've been doing a lot of the last couple of weeks. And they're not really wrongs against me, but as I take most things horribly personally and can't force them out of my mind... Sigh, I say (and do).

On a lighter note, Earl Grey tea is becoming more agreeable to me. I am very babe-ish-ly having it very weak and pouring in so much more milk than I ever would with even hot chocolate, but I'm finding it vaguely nice. When that's all that's brewing, and someone is willing to do it for you, you take the offering. Plus, when you're studying and feeling lazy, it's extra nice. And today I had two cups, as Jean didn't want hers as much as she thought she did.

Oh yay. My postings are about tea. I really should pay that $250 and do a coffee course so I can actually be rightfully and licensedly elitist when I note that my cappucino maker doesn't know how to level off that which has been ground.

Newtown, here we come!

Actually, an adventure to Denny's and that poster store again would be nice, as well as picking up some cheap funnily-coloured nail polish. Yay for false materialism!

'Marriage is for life, not just for anniversaries'

2006-03-11T14:03:00.000+11:00

http://www.nationstates.net/urraki

My Nation States nation - yay! I'm quite bad with money - I just like civil rights and have no care for being bankrupt...

News?

I'm probably about halfway through my Short Story major work, In Loco Parentis, which is quite excellent. And I finally have an idea that I like for my drama script - yay!

I was watching Video Hits this morning (and yes it was painful) but I found a couple of nice emo bands...

So what else is news? Lenny is schleeeepy, and has to write an essay this afternoon, read 3 books, write 3000 words of English story... the list does go on.

But - Stephen has a lab coat! Which means I'll have a proper costume for drama performance..

*collapses on keyboard*

No!

Yet I've had a coffee already today, and it was quite a large one.. *thinks of tea instead* Ooh! Have to do some telephoning...

I'll leave you with my script idea and you can give me a plot, please!

All politically incorrect and purposely eccentric characters. The play starts with a homeless man on his park bench, then the Grandma comes in, pretending she's so frail she needs to sit down, and shoves him off... The idea is that gradually all the characters come in and.. stuff.. HELP, please!

Homeless man: the only one who is supposed to be there, but he’s the only one without a home
Mr. Scott Jenkins: A businessman fired from his job. He wears a paper bag on his head with eyeholes. He thinks he's failed life, miserably, and eternally.
Grandma: considers herself to be very frail and old (thus everyone should be nice to her) when in fact she is very physically able.
Maxine: Politically incorrect feminist. A lecturer on women’s issues at the local university. Claims to be fighting for feminist desires, and sees herself as a bra burner, but submits to patriarchal misogyny in every way.
Emo boy: very emotional and usually happy. He has ‘ATTENTION’ written in red paint on one arm and ':)' on the other, trying to look like scars. Earphones constantly in. He actually has nothing to pity himself over.

What happens? ARGH!!! I need a plot by.. tuesday! Or I'll be visciously attacked by my not-so-nice teacher and you probably won't see me ever again ^_^

*cries*

Hiding in anonymity

2006-03-04T10:08:00.000+11:00

I'm currently listening to Iced Earth - anyone heard of them? Rindi might like them.. Not quite death + angry enough, maybe, but close to screaming Noise.

I've got a copy of the March issue of DMAG! Yay! I've gone through and marked which articles I wrote so I can show friends at school next week. The highlight for me is being able to insert friends' names into publication. First Amrit, then Rindi, now the world!

Although I don't know if Amrit would remember who I am... Perhaps I'll scan in the logic puzzle I made (with Rindi's name in it) and post up soon. I can take requests, I guess. But I won't be working with them these holidays because I'll be in China, and then after that it's HSC, HSC! Stupid school >.<

I thought I wouldn't be procrastinating on the .. three? essays I have to do.. but I haven't done anything but spider solitaire, checking blogs and listening to music for a couple of hours. Why did I choose essay subjects? Remember that all I'm doing is histories, english and drama.. *sigh* I love my subjects, though, I really do. Although everyone in my drama class (including me) wishes they could drop it, but can't. Actually, Katy can, but she doesn't want to screw us over even more than the teacher has. That's nice.

I think I'll be going up for a coffee soon... Yet tea is my latest nice drink. That calming effect... Drinking so many cups that... Well, it's not that bad.

I wanted to *wave* 'hi' to Maddy. *huggggg* I've been missing you, as strange as that may be at times.. :) Thank you for your review, and I hope emailing you works. Hmm...
Well, what you said made me smile very much, and then I went to check my poem to see what was so true about the lines (I couldn't remember which one it was). But - thank you always. Don't stop writing, either!

Speaking of some things writing, I'm toying around with one idea for a book.. that would be a very big work, but nothing like any of my novel plans. I might let you in on the secret, in a little while.
We should have another panel at EXO. ^^

Luf!

I could change the world if I could change my mind

2006-03-02T19:29:00.000+11:00

Word on the street (ie. from Erin who does actually know) that a Jazz band is playing at Courtyard Cafe this Saturday. Hm. Now I can't remember if I've said this. Feel free to ask.

*dances to Radio Adelaide*

I confessed to a friend today that all I really wanted to do was go to Adelaide. They were all discussing their deep-seated dreams of retiring and moving to France, or leaving Australia straight after school and going to Asia or eastern Europe. : Well, I might seem a bit dull and loser-ish, but that's all I'd want to do. Sure, I want to frolick beautiful green hills in Europe, and maybe once have a white Christmas, but overall I do love Australia. I can't *really* imagine living anywhere else. Go Aussie pride. Heh.. those new tourism ads...

I need to go back to being addicted to the Sims (2), I think. All I do is play spider solitaire while waiting for new Nation States issues, and frankly it's almost unfortunate I've lost some of the more obsessive/addictive parts of my being. It's really only coffee these days, and I'm blase` about that too. I even have a plan for Lent. Crazy. What has happened to me??

It's times like these I consider I truly am a boring person.

However, some of my more lufflier friends will say 'nay' and I will thank them for their friendship words of love (*huggles* Suchu). ^_^

Ahem. Now the emotional pizzazz is over, let's discuss something confrontational.

Actually, if you like debate about some hot issues, head over to Kate's blog. She gets really into stuff. Unfortunately it's an MSN Space, so you'll need some id to get in. Heh.

My Gran was warning me just a few minutes ago about the lack of True Toilets in rural China. Don't worry, I've already been informed I need to take toilet paper! And to save weight (and space), word is to take out the cardboard roll and squash it flat, for maxmising room. Just some tips, folks.

I'm considering transfering my floating candle (it's actually flower-shaped!) from the bowl Eddy gave me (he went to Japan!!! *cries about wanting to fit in his suitcase*) to another decorative one I found in the house. I've inspected it and decided I will experiment (though I haven't informed/asked my mother yet) using a beautiful bowl so that my floating candle will in reality float. Yes.

^_^ Ta... Sorry for lack of interesting reading, again. Lost is on tonight, and it's one of the tv shows I do watch, though I am sick of them advertising it as though this is a MUST SEE episode because I will finally get ALL THE ANSWERS. Pfft. As if, I say. Even the writers don't know any endings.

Fluxicity

2006-02-28T19:37:00.000+11:00

In a couple of years, ie. in ten months when I've finished school, I'll look back on these earlier posts and say 'why on earth was I talking about that?!'. However, the fact would remain that I spent at least 4 hours a day doing school, being at school, breathing SCHOOL and my mind was so flooded it had nothing interesting or otherwise contemplative to concern everyone else with.

So... I'm definately not going to 'change me' to make this blog more interesting, but it might become more sort of rantings about how many deviants and blogs are horrible photos of kittens. I mean, the kittens aren't horrible, but the amount of wasted space is.

I should set up that inter-school prefect internet thing myself... Ooops, there I go about school again!

On the plus side, I didn't get yelled at today! :)

And if you've experienced gmail chat, wave your mouse pointer over emoticons. They turn around again. It excites me (poor Gregor).

And, in the spirit of deadjournal ~

currently listening to: Dream Theater - Big Medley (live recording)
Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody
Paradyme
Orchestral end of the world music <-- It's pretty ^_^

*Frolics off*

You know when...

2006-02-27T20:29:00.000+11:00

...You have to write your entire draft for your (opera script) major work over two nights
...You have to compose 2,000 words a week of a story because you're the only one doing the HSC in 2006 that's going to China in the Easter holidays with the school combined band
...You're quite tired
...But still quite excited?

Well, you could fit in nicely to my life ^_^

*wraths* stupid history extension essay. Ooops!! That's something else I'm behind on. Sigh. Collapse. Azumanga Daioh style.

Should I bother doing this essay? Um, yes! La la la.... <-- This is the 'I don't want to do work and I wish I had XP Spider Solitaire on this computer so I could really distract myself' tuneless la-ing.

Yep.

Oh well. And if you've been to liveunderfaith.blogspot.com, please ignore the poorness of the site. James doesn't know how to fix up the links, etc, and I ran out of time to be entirely helpful that and the following day.

In the meantime, while you're arguing that if I'm posting in this and having time to be wishing to play spider solitaire, then I can surely use my break more productively and make the communityblog more user friendly, I shall go and get some sars(aparilla).

*skips away but falls over on her way out*

Oh! Guess who just did some exercise! ! ! Take that, Mr. Fitness Is Good For Your Health! (He has a sad, lonely face)

Psalm 63

2006-02-27T17:45:00.000+11:00

This dude, let's call him Dave, was stuck in a desert. If you were stuck in a desert, quite hungry and thirsty with no people friends dancing around, wouldn't you feel a little lonely and sad? Maybe you would. But Dave wrote this (it's a song):

earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
Because your love is better than life...
I will praise you as long as I live.
Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.
They who seek my life will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.

I am just feeling great, and I had to say so ^_^

I really like these lines (paraphrased and different version)...

You have helped me,
and I sing happy songs
in the shining light of your wings.

I stay close to you,
and your powerful arm
supports me.

Anyway...

^_^

Oh, and if you're interested: liveunderfaith.blogspot.com For all you crazy cats who like posting.

La la la... la la la la la... (it is to a tune)

Oops, there's one more 'la'.

*sways happily to soul music*

If you live someone in the vicinity of Chatswood, NSW, Australia... As in.. within 40 minutes driving distance, you should be free on Saturday night and we can eat cheap food and have fun together! Press me for more details.

Ooh, I should create an actual button.

hums herself to sleep

2006-02-26T22:33:00.000+11:00

Sunday @ Seven was great... Ask me about it ^_^

I'd put this song online, but..

Lyrics:

Psalm 130 More Than The Watchman (by Sons of Korah)

Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord;
O Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
To my cry for mercy.

If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
Therefore you are feared.

My soul waits for the Lord
and in his word I put my hope.

More than watchmen waits
More than watchmen waits
For the Dawn.

O Israel, put your hope in God,
For with Him is unfailing love
And with Him is full redemption.
He save us from our sins.

My soul waits for the Lord
and in his word I put my hope.
More than watchmen wait
More than watchmen wait
For the morning.

My new favourite song...

The Battery Kids in China

2006-02-25T13:27:00.000+11:00

I've just had ten minutes of fun creating a lovely Sodoff Baldric.

Ha-ha! He makes me laugh every time... Hehehh..

So James and I have been up to all sorts of caffeinated fun! I've been editing a story he already wrote, and I think then we're going to co-write some more Annatar tales (of whic Sodoff is a part.. haha!).

And I now know what Ashleigh's blog addy is, so that's interesting. *shrugs* Contrived controversy.

And when Mr. James Black updates his blog a few more times (at least ten posts, I think I'm making that my regulation) I'll add him to my official links. I'll probably add Kate's (from school) as well. Oh well.

Ha ha... I'm going to stick another pic of Sodoff (if you don't like what he's doing, tell him to sod off) on my wall.. Like Tommy and the Tree Squirrels.

Eddy got me a present from his latest trip to Hong Kong! How nice. I'm remembering the pen Fi gave me when she got back from exchange to Germany. I really liked it. ^^ And then I saw Rebecca had gotten the pencil tin + rubber + other accessories or something. And then I wondered if she had forgotten about me : So, anyway.. No more jealousy or self-pitying - working on.. *sniggers about Sodoff* Wielder now.. :)

Oh, and I am aiming to wear a Battery Kids shirt in China. As we can barely pack anything for weight limits, I'll probably be wearing it a few times.. Now I just have to decide which one.. I should put up a poll ^_^

Singles Awareness Day

2006-02-20T19:25:00.000+11:00

James is coming down to humble small town Lennyville! So we'll be going to a combined churches band youth night up the coast, as well as (supposedly) co-writing a novel, and generally hanging out. There should be much coffee. ^_^

I actually refrained from my friend caffiene today. Goodbye, International Roast, hello hot chocolate! Actually, my latest fun concoctions have been iced coffees, which I have nearly perfected. None of this Nescafe iced frappe business. If you aren't aware of what Nestle is doing, google 'nestle boycott' and you'll find out why I never buy Nestle.

Something new and exciting Michael (Canada Michael) alerted me to is www.nationstates.net Fun! My kind of rpg.. Well, it's nothing like that at all, but if I could play more frequently, it might beat Civ III.

Latest news is that stress has compounded and I am now ill. My future health does not look promising. Probably another day off school. But that's ok.

As if I was going to work on my short story. That was just an excuse to use the computer and wish for spider solitaire.

www.dmag.com.au

I think the new issue is out now! The one I wrote half of... It was either in stores the 16th or 21st, so grab a copy of the March issue today! ^_^

My brother decided to put some jazz on... Reminds me of Aus Geo's editor Ken.. "Mind some jazz, Lenny?"
(nervously and excited) "No, not at all.."

Lenolia

2006-02-15T14:19:00.000+11:00

Trying to convince nice brother to take me to my friends' house.. Drag him there as well so he has a good reasons to take me. ^_^ Stargate-ing, perhaps? I've finished the third DVD of the third season now.. and now Daniel's wife is dead so season 8 won't be such a shock.. Oh, the technology.

Apparently I'm writing a musical for my drama script Major Work. My teacher told me so >.< Bohemian Rhapsody and Gimme the Prize, it was always going to be one. I might taper it back to a play, though. It depends how dramatic vs. operatic it turns out being.

I'm looking up Dante's Inferno..

Going! Yay! :D Dancing and snuggling and maybe chocolate concoctions! The way to a man's heart is still through his stomach...

Post-it Me!

2006-02-06T18:12:00.000+11:00

Art!

Yay for links!

Just a brief note on my latest additions:

* May Yeo - really good. That's all I have to say about that.

* Jo Chen - my most favouritest online artist EVER. A couple of her cg paintings are great sources of inspiration for my novels. Highly reccommended.

* Edgeworlds - I really like her style of drawing. This is HP (Harry Potter) fan art, folks. I might be a Harry Potter geek, but.. Well, I'm proud of it. I don't like some of the pairings/ships she draws, but.. they're so good!

* Potter Puffs - hee hee! They're so funny and cute and..!!! If you've never checked them out before, 'tis a must! Harry Potter characters in Powerpuffs forms!

I was considering putting up a link to some others, but they're not as good. Also, Anthony's Deviant, but I'd want to ask him first for permission, and then again I'm not really sure if I would want to either. ^_^ I like keeping him for myself. Uh, I mean... *coughs and runs back to reality*

Oh, I don't mean it like that!

*pokes tongue out*

The Cat Returns

2006-02-06T17:41:00.000+11:00

Aside from copying Studio Ghibli anime films as titles, little Lenny has been up to a lot.

She has now received prime Radelaide Blog Status as a link on Jonno's blog! Heheh... Oh, I remember those woefully pitiful days of conceiving my first email to the Battery Kids.. I just didn't know what to say :P

Does anyone else wish they had the DVD of all Michael Jackson's movie-esque music videos? My friends stated that they wouldn't be able to bear looking at his face for that long, and I have to agree. Still.. Thriller, c'mon!

In between organising YBS weekend away and ordering around my coffee and sarsaparilla addictions, I've been half attempting homework that I should have done 9 weeks ago (now thoroughly overdue) and crying (not fully inside) that Thornleigh Baptist may not be able to play for my Sunday @ Seven service. Sigh.

While I don't know how Jonno could not have already discovering David Bowie, it's refreshing to discover (often not new) good music.

At lunch today at school (oh, it sounds so pathetic... only one more year... *twitches like an ex-heroin addict*) we were discussing many peoples' bfs and I was joking how I would have to conform to peer pressure and find myself one. I think it was Helen who suggested I just needed to find some nice emo boy. So, yes, when I eventually trip down to Radelaide I'll find me a nice emo boof. Cool talk, folks. I know (well, I don't actually) that 'Dolly' doesn't actually write 'boof', but when you use Cool Talk to say 'bf' out loud, that's what it sounds like. Sigh. Sometimes I hate us. And, for your delightful information, I am not using the royal pronoun.

"I have no problem with Brett Ratner speaking in third person. It implies that he has split personalities and that other personality might actually be a good director. "

Brett Ratner is the director of X-men 3. I shudder. Sometimes I say I feel sorry for him, but bashing him can be quite fun. The above quote was from an entire forum thread(s) dedicated to um.. *cough* praising his level of intelligence. I'm sure I'll continue having advance nightmares about how X3 will turn out.

Other people seem to be stressing out a lot about Year 12 so far this year, but I'm all blase`. I'm obviously not the one who will make our school come second in the state (our principal says it's stupid rough appropriation by the newspapers), but I seem to have done well so far. And I think even if I was doing badly, I wouldn't take it so. I have it in my head that I have not much work to do, but I think I'm just ignoring my Major Works (history, english ext. 2 and drama). However, I don't really think I'm that behind on them either. Hm.

Update: I found my watch.

I know I never posted that I lost it, but I lost it some time last year (straight after I'd gotten a new watch band) and I didn't want to tell anyone, especially for fear of my parents. Indeed, the method worked. It turned up, just like I thought it would. In the couches/on the floor of the cool-i-oh YBS back room. Just fab. No worries.

Something to consider: (ooh, this sounds exciting, maybe I should post thought-provoking things each post!) when your two friend groups intermingle consistently, as do your two 'identities', things become a little weird but also much more relaxed and fun.

It was a bit worrisome when the 'Lynette' and 'Lenny' worlds first inter-.. collided? Oh, it all began with Tegan. And those horrible plays we performed were I had to revisit my Target Days. Now everbody is swapping bfs and gfs and we're plotting others' demises.

Not really, actually.

Oh, now I have to go and be devious and crafty and plot someone's (metaphorical) demise.

Ta for your eyes and your time,

Lenny ^_^

Are you sure you want to do that?

2006-02-04T09:36:00.000+11:00

The title is referencing the fact that my internet won't work after a couple of sites unless I shut down anti-virus protection death god, Zone Alarm. Do I want my internet to work?

YES.

I've just surprisingly found a booklet that summarises my entire Modern History topic of China. And then I realise it's not relevant at all because it's the year 11 version. -.-

Wow, I'm actually doing my homework now! I thought using the computer might be just a superficial thing wherein I pretend to "need to research"..

>.<

I'll post again later.

Suchu's Already Lost Her Shoes

2006-02-02T19:31:00.000+11:00

I'm trying to find some more 'The Early November' which is acoustic and slower than Dashboard Confessional, and less whiny too ^_^

Michael just asked me if I wanted to go to NSW uni with him and Dave : Now he's telling me to wag school. *snorts*

As if I'm going.

I just keep thinking of how Kris came to Sunday @ Seven and really liked it, and it makes me smile ^_^ Except now she's pretending to hate me because I asked her if she was 'thinking about boys' when she was giggling randomly.

Carmen said I'm definately not allowed to see X3 without her, so maybe I'll see it with Rindi and her.. Drag one of them along with the other. 'Cause they're both my sci-fi/movie buddies. Today Carmen and I went over to Westfield during lunch due to the extreme, deathly heat. Don't worry, we're allowed to. It's only across the road from our school. Though she nearly nearly got hit by a car.

Yay! This Saturday is so exciting.. Devotion and Courtyard Cafe! Actually, it's mostly just Cafe I'm excited about, because I have no idea about Devotion, but I haven't been in a couple of months and I'll get to sit down and have a chat with Erin (hopefully) about our common pains.

I've emailed Thornleigh Baptist to try and get them to do music for my Sunday @ Seven service, which is the last Sunday of this month (I'm being unnaturally unorganised), and I've also tried to get in contact with Chris Hunter (Terrigal) to try and get a number for the speaker.. And I have contact details for some interviewees, but I want to talk my ideas over with someone first, except Mrs DJ, mentor, is off on holiday so I'll just bounce ideas with my mum, I think.

I think I'll go back to watching swimming.. too many people on msn and I'm getting virtual claustrophobia.

Until a later time,

^_^

You can't 'fix me'

2006-01-27T16:13:00.000+11:00

I won't be around for a couple of days as I'm going away for the weekend to (nearly) finish off my youth ministry/leadership course, Formation. Obviously, I am shamelessly plugging it for all you peeps who live in my general area to do it as well.

http://www.4twelve.unitingchurch.org.au/

So I'll be eating so much chocolate I won't be able to fit in lunch or dinner, and I'll be learning more about God and people. It'll be great.

Oh, and I just remembered that there are some embarassing photos of me with (brown) short hair (a year after I shaved my head for charity) so now you are going to have to check it out :P

And Kristina is probably coming to Sunday @ Seven this Sunday night - w00t! ^_^ So that's what I'm doing from tonight on.

Today was a rehearsal for China Tour, and Dasso (Ms Das Neves, Deputy Principal) was there, and we chatted for a little while about how I'm not looking/feeling ill, and how she's learning clarinet too so by easter she'll be playing with the best of us. After she went off again, I turned to Sarah (they're in year TEN now! Oh, I remember when they were in year seven and so little...) and the other first clarinet and explained why I was talking to a teacher. We're 'like that' (twisting fingers). We're only all buddy-buddy 'cause I was quite sick the end of last term and Dasso decided to become my doctor and insisted I had glandular fever and we ended up seeing a lot of each other (seeing as she is my ancient history teacher and deputy principal). So aside from her saying 'alright?' too much, and being a sort of bad teacher (ie. boring), I like her fair enough. And her son looked so lonered today. I was going to talk to Mr. James Taylor (the other deputy's son) who's also coming on tour, and then he went to talk to Dasso's son, and then I was being friends with Asquith Girl Bec, and I can't keep ditching her. Well, that's what I did last time.

But there's another three hour rehearsal on Monday, so I'll buddy it up with them then.

Dietz (conductor) keeps advising we need to keep 8 kgs free in our suitcases for shopping in China, but I don't know what I would be getting. Aside from anime, of course. And aside from typical souvenir type stuff. Which is probably what I'll end up doing. But as if I'll be able to keep down the weight of my packing! I always overpack! Packing for the Formation weekend, I'm taking the mini-suitcase, just 'cause it's easier, and I thought it would be nearly/half empty. As if. I put nearly everything in and it looks all full. *sigh*

I don't want to pull a Ludi - I think I'll start packing for China about three weeks beforehand. I got some stuff at Christmas to take to China, so that'll be the first to be plonked in.

I'll need to be eating before I leave to pick up Tegan and Christianne for the Formation weekend, and I'll play a bit of solitaire in lament for it's spider brother, so this is the end of this.

:)

Plan NOW to survive

2006-01-25T10:34:00.000+11:00

Radio Adelaide makes me feel so cultured ^_^

And, like TJ (although on other matters), "because I like it".

I've been watching the tennis heartily, rooting for players that I doubt will win a Grand Slam final. It's fun. And I stayed up late last night, but I half-slept in this morning to the sound of building next door, so my half-dreams contained well-timed gun shots.

I should be doing schoolwork... I need to be more stressed about it, first. I'm not that much Under Pressure *click click* yet. Sigh...

*scowl*

Ok, now I'm working my way up to it. Thinking about it subconsciously...

You know what's addictive? Spider Solitaire. Yes, that's right. When James first talked to me about it, as if I had any idea what he was saying. Oh, but it's fun. My new Civilization II, I think. So what if I can't play on higher difficulty.

Gah. I've found a few more deviants I like.. Preeeetty. So I am still considering putting up Art links. But then I should also do some web comic links, but then I haven't read my favourites in .. probably around a year.. At least months. So that's a bit.. something.

I practised my China music last night. All I want for Christmas... is to be able to play those semi quavers in Pirates like a pro. Oh, I used to be able to do it... I think Dietz (band conductor) is just conducting really fast to show off how good symphonic band were. And this conglomerate tour band for China.. well.. considering how many year sevens there are... But - next and first rehearsal for the year is Friday morn, so I'll be able to greet Asquith buddies, Hannah and Bec, and become friends with Mr. James Taylor (deputy principal's son). He's either super smart or actually a year older than me. Which would be weird. And then I could no longer have reign of being oldest (and best) student! I'm sure he's just accelerated (he's already done half of his HSC subjects). And I think he goes to James Ruse, which is the top school in the state, so that would be self-explanatory. In my mind, I still don't think of our school as that intelligenta maximum, but really, we are. Hm. I think our grade will bring the school back down ^_^ Or at least I will.

So I'll listen to Radio Adelaide a bit more, probably not play the Sims, and 'after lunch' get to work on that essay. As if. And I forgot that I don't have the weekend to do everything cause of Formation. Oh well.

Spider solitaire!

Waves

2006-01-21T11:46:00.000+11:00

Wow - I'm considering buying a Marjorie Fair CD. o.0 That is, if one existed and I could buy one. :)

They're nice easy listening, actually. Ok, this song is a bit repetitive, but nice lyrics, nice vocals.. Yeah.. *dreamy state of needing sleep*

Guess who else loves the Battery Kids now? James! Yay ^_^ :D I think he nearly loves them as much as I do. It's fab. And I might be heading up to his holiday house on Monday and we can plot and plan and I can further avoid doing homework. So much for today being essay writing day.

The annoying thing about my mp3 player is that with the putting-on of Hack Sign songs, everything goes crazy. All my Band of Brothers tracks are inbetween Queen, so one minute it's Plaisier, and the next it's All Dead, All Dead. : Wow, that actually fits pretty well.. Anyway... *scowls*

Tonight's Niki's birthday dinner; Michael's made her one of his great cards, I've made her a semi-trippy card using my photoshop connoisseur tactics.

Still major drama about 'what do I wear', and I can't even follow Christianne's great ideas that can be trendied down or formalled up, because I don't have anything clothes like that. Well, not washed, anyway.

OK, now my internet cuts out randomly even without Zone Alarm operating. >.< Maybe Bryan's anti virus pirated software would make things work? :P

Hmm.. Haven't been doing Gran's dictionary-word-every-couple-of-days thing..

Next weekend is a lot of things! Formation, the youth ministry leadership course I'm doing - the chocolate perpetuation will continue. Yes, I am aware that doesn't really make sense, but thinking of chocolate can do this to people. Also - Tegan's Sunday @ Seven service, which will be cool.. oops.. I need a name for my one.. Snappy title person around? Hm... I need one of those annoying muses that occasionally gives good ideas or hints.

! Had a good/fun plot bunny yesterday and now I can't remember it.. :(

I'm thinking of making an 'Art' links section. Just to make it easier for myself when I want to check sites, really.. But some are so goooood. @.@ Hmm... *thinking of the artist she would pick to illustrate every page of her novel*

Ahh, Marjorie Fair..

Oh, and I spelt connoisseur right after all.

That can be enough now, or I'll depress myself by observing Becca's and Kari's msn names and being miserable.

^_^

Not Another Like Song

2006-01-19T08:12:00.000+11:00

Hey Michael, remember that time you very indiscreetly implied that your best friend was hot in front of your best friend's mum? *sniggers*

Oh, good times.

Gackt's voice @.@ I can bathe in it. *sigh*

I wish Gloria Jeans went back to BOGOF (buy one get one free), I've just been to www.hotdockets.com.au to try and nab me one but to no avail. So hot chocolate today will be half price off one only. Actually, that's going to amount to about $7, if we're both getting larges.. I was going to treat Tegan. Oh well. We can't depend on my maths skills leaving enough spending money in my wallet anyway.

Oh, and run down to 3 sherbet lemons as of yesterday, when mum, Eddy and I saw Joyeux Noel. She kept speaking loudly to him, when I'm sure he could hear find. Y.Y Though, he had just gotten out of bed and looked sleepy, then after the movie thought it was night time.. 4 hours sleep in 48 hours... Not good, Ed-kun. *shudder*

At least I have confidence in my sleeping abilities, now. I didn't get to sleep straight away last night, but I don't think I was yet "trying". The harder you try, the harder it is.

To help you sleep, think happy thoughts. Who knows, you might fly as well.

Hmm.. So tomorrow is this long-awaited (not really) picnic in the city. *Shrugs* My friends are going, that's why I want to go. I also enjoy the train rides. When you go with other people, it makes the trip seem shorter. But I like it when they go on for ages. (Right now I feel so unintelligent.) It's like New Year's.. Everyone else had fallen into a drunken doze, I was reading and singing in my mind, but I had no idea where we were, so I put my stuff away and missed maximum fun time. Well, that's the Northen Line for ya.

I can't even pretend I'm a North-Shore-oh, even though I live on that train line, but I'm simply on the other side of Hornsby, in a hole, just because we're a smaller suburb. We have a Maccas! The other suburbs either side of us don't! ^_^'''

Well, at least we're not Cowan. *snort* Eight streets.. XD

Oh, we're MUCH better than them (obviously), and my superiority complex is settling in again.

I need to have breakfast before going out. Last time I'm getting school shoes in my life. Unless the ones I'm getting are faulty and terrible and I'll need new ones. Still. I'm hoping I'm served by someone vaguely familiar. That would be a nice farewell.

Hmm.. The Ataris? They famous? Hmm.. A bit too punk-esque. But alright :) *dances*

Alex the Seal!!!

Pretty Foreign Music

2006-01-17T15:32:00.000+11:00

Today was slightly more productive than it was going to be.

Actually, about the same, as I could have seen a movie and still done the same amount of work >.<

I'm reading a book I don't like, I managed to log in for my Drama script.. Stephen's upstairs watching Initial D (eps I've already seen... I think he wouldn't have gotten ahead yet), and I wish I had more Gackt like In This Empty Room. Sigh, of course.

:)

o.0 The Early November - anyone ever heard of them? Sound kinda like Dashboard Confessionals, but slower and better and less.. indie.. o.O

So I'm going to this picnic on Friday. I *think* Michael's going. Oh well, I'm taking some fresh bread rolls to munch, and some Sars (which I won't put in the fridge or it'll perspire in my bag... even if I put another bag around it, it would probably be warm by the time I get to the botanical gardens). Actually, I might boost my Baptist Youth Ministeries travel mug up with Byron Bay coffee.. ohh, Byron Bay.... mmm.. Ok, that's going to be my one coffee today instead. *twitchy eyes as she tries not to run immediately away and get her caffiene fix*

Ahem.

Oh, I think I'm gettin' a headache. o.0 The typing is sounding louder than normal and it's kind of pounding in my head. Not good. @.@

I aim to review this story called Unwell, as I'm now up to date with it. Basically, just begging for an update. T.T

Chocolate Tea is my new invention (so yummy too). For my eighteenth I'll make all sorts of strange punch-like concoctions with no alcohol in them.. (heheh.. - thinking of my favourite right now... which I unfortunately can't make because I have no real orange juice >.<).. and perhaps I'll have a hot drink menu to satisfy the other crazy people like me.

Song I'm currently listening to sounds like 'Beautiful Soul' sung by a whiny adult man. : Not nice.. But I make myself listen to a song all the way through before I decide to do anything to it. And the stuff I'd get rid of is normally the background/acoustic sounding stuff people have compilations of or bring to YBS in their ipods. -.-'

Forgive me if I rather like the power in Requiem. XD

Sigh.. coffee coffee.... Fine, I'm going - and there's nothing you can do to stop me!

..Although I might try and convince myself I don't need/want any by the time I get up the stairs, and then I'll imagine Stephen is glaring at me and I'll feel guilty and.. coffeeeeeee!!!!

^_^; Leave her alone, folks. She's never quite herself.
And now that I know people have possibly read this, you can possibly comment and entertain me, or tell me off for having nasty addictive caffiene-drinking habits. Or watching too much funnily dubbed anime. Ha.

Ta ta, my darlings! *twirls away*

In The News

2006-01-16T16:04:00.000+11:00

Ever seen Radelaide in the Sims 2?

http://thesims2.ea.com/exchange/lot_detail.php?asset_id=200109&asset_type=lot&user_id=254598

Adelaide Festival Centre. Does it look like the real thing?

See the creator's profile for more, including the largest dunny of the virtual simulation world.

http://thesims2.ea.com/mysimpage/uploads.php?user_id=254598&asset_type=lot

I Started Making Excuses

2006-01-16T15:01:00.000+11:00

Is what we choose in life echoed or magnified in eternity?

I think the latter, but the former sounds cooler, and it's closer to the Gladiator rip.

So I did six pages of History Extension this morning. Yay.

I feel so behind on drama, yet I'm probably ahead. This is because I haven't written in my log for ages, but I have a plot. Unfortunately, in my head I think the play would last about 20 minutes, not the forty or so it needs to be.. Hmm.. Of course, I haven't tried writing it yet or anything, so I could be vastly wrong.

And I'm doubting that I'll have more than a paragraph written of my Ext. 2 short story major work.. Though I'm guessing I'll always be needing to do more research, and it'll never be sufficient for them..

Ooh, getting hungry again..

*sigh* I ate all the pasta. I could make some more.. Effort.. But I do like that chunky premade sauce..

Oh, my life revolves around food. This morning my mum told me off for my terrible habit of only coffee and chocolate. Excuse me if I want to make myself hungry for lunch and don't want to face nutri-grain before 12.30.

:( + :(

1. PLAN of seeing Valiant is failed, because I checked and those tickets are valid Tuesdays. I doubt I'd get lucky enough that the person doesn't check again.
2. I have homework. Michael and Rindi are laughing at me.

Now I just feel like bludging. Meh - who cares about those 25 books I have to read... Mroop >.<

I don't think I'll go to the Picnic on Friday. As Michael has no monies for even a train ticket. *sigh*

Now, now...

2006-01-15T22:14:00.000+11:00

So I've posted a link to my yahoo photo album. Please use and not abuse, people. Thanks.

Oh, I need sleep if I'm going to squish doing all of my homework and major works into tomorrow. Heh. :P

http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/g_tsrb/

Thread

2006-01-15T20:52:00.000+11:00

Tonight has been a very productive on-the-computer night.

Done the Hot Chocolate Day flyer[1], organised seeing Valiant for free, talked to Dave G., having fun with James.. And I've done a load of other things I can't remember, of course :P

I'm listening to about 5 different versions of the classic 'All By Myself' that I illicitly acquired. Yes, come to my house and legally berate me. I'd rather be in jail than be fined.

Yes, I'm quite sure I would, thank you.

Addicted to You is being nominated for awards. *Shrugs* Except then I felt slightly bad for my zealous review, because I wasn't nice as I could have been. Oh well. We'll see in the next couple of days, if she does shout-out/review responses. Ah, it's all fun anyway.

Ok, I've got a lot of random fake rnb crap on my other computer. Hmm.. Yet I can't be bothered to delete (and I can be bothered to do this??).

Gah, I'll return.

: )

[1 - 'Exhibit A' of the Hot Chocolate Day (sorry, couldn't resist the rhyme)]

Moulting

2006-01-14T14:43:00.000+11:00

Just because I pressed your 'On' button doesn't mean I made you real.

: James has been sending me daily Biblical stuff. Check this out:

[God] has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God. 2 Corinthians 5:19 and 20

Wow. O.O I love Corinthians. The last line is especially important to me right now.

So.... I've been off being reckless, right? No, just more procrastination. The "work" that I am doing today is typing up my Extension History Proposal (which should have been done about three months ago), maybe finishing reading a book, but I doubt it. I love sticking to the Plan. Well, I love it when my Plans work, anyway.

By the way, the title is a reference to my hair. *blinks* Yes.

I'm going to set up a yahoo photo album mostly to make it easier for myself, and I think it will be quicker uploading and viewing.

Sorting that out now...

I made a somewhat hilarious movie on Movie Maker (old school) yesterday. Fun times. Stephen thought that it didn't make much sense, and perhaps there were a few too many flying random cats, but I had fun.

I'll tell you what else is fun: keeping Veggie Tales songs on 'repeat'. For a long time. :)

Oh my. *shakes head and sighs at self*

And I've decided that Sims 2 is a bit complicated. In my day, it was a bit simpler. I think the Hot Date relationships bugged everyone a bit, but things certainly were easier to manage. Still fun, of course.

My recent fling at DMAG has yielded much anime. I've been through 2 DVDs so far. I watched the ones I thought would be good first. I might actually consider buying the next of them (instead of doing my usual and dling). Actually, it might be difficult to find on the net. I may just find them in China. *Snorts*

There was an Alan Rickman movie I really wanted to see, but the person who rec'ed it had to buy it over ebay or something. I'm just worried about area coding. And there's that problem of needed a credit card. yeah, I can prove that I have a reliable income of an annual $15, 000. :

I want one for internet purchases, such as $1 computer games off ebay that I want, but also Koorong so I can get stuff like Veggie Tales On The Road CD without having to hassle the mother or making the trip to West Ryde. Oh, to be more independent.

I can't imagine working in retail again, though. And I think I would find Pizza Hut Call Centre (the family) distressing and stressful 'cause I can't remove myself from the horribleness of angry people. It's all a hierarchy.

Currently going to be another half hour until Semi-formal photos are uploaded. Sigh. I guess I'll get to work on that work...

Everyone buy March DMAG! Which comes out the... 17th (?) of February? It's either that or the twentieth. I'm just not sure of Feb. and March issue in-store dates.

Oh, and something you won't find in DMAG:

This was something I researched for the Weird Science section of DMAG. I think my editor decided it was too much of the strange-animal-doings section, so this was scrapped. So, just a sample of the kind of stuff I write. Well, the short stuff, anyway. Oh - I think the actual problem was that they didn't have any photos handy and they weren't able to afford pictures for this issue.. Hmm...

Sensitive Teeth

by Lynette Ohye (<--- Yes, she has a real name!)

Are your teeth sometimes really sensitive to ice cream? Well, check out the narwhal whale – it has a 2.5 metre-long tooth that comes out of its head, making it look like a unicorn. Previously researchers thought the narwhal whale used its giant tooth as a weapon, but the real function is to sense surroundings. The narwhal has millions of tiny nerve endings on the tooth's outer surface, which tell the whale heaps of things about its environment, such as water salinity and temperature. This means that the whale knows when it's getting into freezing cold waters; this tooth is a real life saver.

*

Thoroughly unedited, of course, so don't get your hopes up about my being a terrible writer and of course you could do so much better and why wouldn't they hire you instead of me? Well, my boss likes me. *pokes tongue out*
And I'm recognised by the Managing Director of Australian Geographic. *pokes tongue out again* So there!

Heheh... (*rolls eyes at self and gets over herself again*)

...
When saying to myself "I don't really want to invite these people to my party", to others it might not seem like a question at all. But there're some people I feel that I have to invite, even though I would have more fun with other people. And it's mostly because they think they're invited. Why wouldn't they be?

Hm..

And there's my 'I like/trust the people I don't really know more'. And the psychoanalysis of that is all obvious, don't worry. But the people I'm not super close to (and I don't feel close to anyone except my best bookend Michael) I find so much easier and more fun to talk to. Ettalong, for example. OK, so I guess I know Sarah and B-rad and Dave G. pretty well.. But my other school friends who I've known ever since Yyear Seven camp... Meh. *Waves to James, if he's reading this* You're one of those 'good pal' types.

I should post some of our fun-yet-crazy "rp"-ing. The role-playing is in inverted commas because it's not what I would really call role-playing as such. Still, - I have nothing to add on to this sentence.

Shutup.

^_^

And guess what - she still hasn't started typing up that research proposal! Hmm.. *gets distracted by the thought of going and getting a drink of illicit soft drink* It's not even illicit.

Ta, sorry for the long post.

Hi, Anthony. ^_^

The Waking Eye

2006-01-13T18:02:00.000+11:00

Just a quickie, I think, as I have to say goodbye to James who is in a very sci-fi RP-ing mood, and need to change into clothes for YBS.

I'll put up some pictures of Ettalong getaway.. Lots of fun.

Heh.. Rindi and Redheads...

Gah.. Going now.. Stupid waste of a post. :) Might take some drugs too. Or just sleep.

Ta.

Luf!

Some Kind of Maybe

2006-01-09T19:41:00.000+11:00

You know what we said before about liking our pre-formal photos? I'm opting for the blurred one. :P

I've discovered another modern band I seem to appreciate (that does not harp to or harvest 80's rock beats) - Sugarcult. I bet they're really famous. I'm going off to do some more non-$1.69 downloading.

Ah - now we remember why we were smiling so badly in the unblurred photo - it was about the fiftieth one Michael's mother took and uhh.. We felt like we needed plastic surgery to keep our cheeks up.

I haven't asked him if I can put up his picture, so I took a little liberty with the editing. Our scanner also needs to be cleaned.

[Best Bookend/Friend Michael and Myself]

I've wiped the other photo and rescanned. Greyscale impending.

So, why don't I want to kill myself?

2006-01-09T19:16:00.000+11:00

When I think about Snape, sometimes I wonder why he wants to keep living - what has he got going for him? I think it's something to do with cowardice. He's smarter than Lucius, he knows Voldie aint gonna give him everything. I believe Severus Snape doesn't want to be the coward Harry accuses him of.

You know how parents say something, then repeat it (in slightly different words), then check that you understand, and repeat themselves again? Ahh yes, Aint It Funny.

I've found a couple of good stories that I'm reading - the best current one being Hello Kitty by Endless Dark - http://www.fictionpress.com/read.php?storyid=1605643 I don't know why I give you these links. Oh well.

I really must press on with bothering to bring down the acceptable photo of myself (and Michael) to scan. Well, I think I can scan it.

Is Our Last Night a band?

I just got a review for a one-shot I wrote years ago, and I specifically stated it was the end. The poor reviewer was asking for an update. I think I'll make mention of its sort-of companion fic.

*Coughs lightly* So I was wrong; I didn't make it idiotically explicit. In fact, I only had the 'complete' toggled. I'm off to fix that.

. . .

:

Do I need mention how much I loathe Quick Edit?? Grr.. No author's note for me! Grr...

Actually, I even remember how much work it took to put in those extra spaces..

*Sigh* I'll just edit the summary.

I'm developing the habit of one who gives up. And it's so much easier.

But more annoying, I think.

When my mum asked my what I was losing sleep over, I responded 'school'. She assumed I was talking about the multitude of homework I have. Well, actually, not 'holiday school work' but 'school'. :)

Work tomorrow. I slept today instead. So I'm not allowing myself to stay up. Whoa. I haven't had any coffee today. Yes, now the addict must have gone crazy. So, in bed by 9 o'clock.

Oh dear.

I'm looking forward to going up to Ettalong - should be lots of fun. I think I'll enjoy the train ride (if it's air conditioned). ^_^

Turns up: His Cheeseburger

And now, in the beginnings of a tradition; another photo:

['Oh, Niksi.']

Run

2006-01-07T16:22:00.000+11:00

How are things? Alright.

Oi.

I feel like getting out my electric gwitar. (And playing some Snow Patrol.) I played Eddy-kun's banjo yesterday. Taught myself Happy Birthday and fiddled around with a couple of other things I usually play.

I'm running out of time to do all my school work...

And with influence of 'Addicted to You', I have new ideas for Ext. 2. 1st person and 3rd person, ... I really should be writing this in my JOURNAL. But I haven't worked out a conflict yet. That really needs to be settled. Because that's my telling-someone-my-idea-and-they-think-it's-cool pivotal thing.

Grr.. Getting slightly annoyed at da_fam.

Sigh.

I'm going to play Civilization II with the CD. That will be exciting, of course.

Big Ohye finished the Half-Blood Prince (*weeps in the corner*) we'll have to discuss it much, of course. Maybe when I'm feeling he's being nicer to his friends. *Sigh*

Ten posts...

I can start advertising, following what I was originally going to do..

I'll try another picture. :)

[I don't even know what this is. Sectumsempra, perhaps? *twisted, ironical smile*]

Now I'm remembering AG workers talking about their ten word word limit for captions. Ha. I might seen them on Monday. Wednesday, if not. 'Cause Emily should be in then.

Ahh, I remember now. Or at least I think I do... Adelaide Blogs. *nods* That guy was cool. I want to go to all those side streets...

'YES'! Optus

2006-01-05T19:17:00.000+11:00

Yes, I'm still alive.

Well, there are some other people I believe dead because I haven't heard from them in a while.. (a while being not that long) And I mean 'dead' in the purely internet sense.

Or do I?

:P

I think the panadol is kicking in now.. Stupid something that was disguising itself as a headache. Or vice versa.

And I really don't like those Optus ads. It seems like they use the word 'seedy' because they really just couldn't think of anything that rhymed better (and maybe we could forgive them), but then they sing 'indeed-y'? *shakes head and sighs* You can imagine that tiredness is not the only contribution to the pains in my brain.

.

You know that 'nobody likes me everybody hates me, I think I'll go eat some worms'... Screw that. ^ ^

Going.

Furthering My Emotional Education

2006-01-04T17:42:00.000+11:00

While the title may be a reference to Love Actually, this post isn't. In fact, emotions don't really have a part to play at all.

Today work was fine - finished that anime Studio Ghibli quiz - it only took me about 5 hours.. Did some 'boring work' of scanning in competition winner drawings. Did a 'What's Going On' for March... I made friends with AG (Australian Geographic) writers and editors, found the Chief Editor to be nice and she asked me if I was having fun. :P Kathy (an editor) has clung to the mistaken assumption that I'm on work experience (and I believe she's told others that), so maybe that's why I'm being forcefed sugar by them... No kidding; half a table of chocolate and lolly pops and many other things I've been told to eat all of and then start on the next lot. I happened to overhear Kathy (who is super nice) on a phone call saying she thought I wasn't sure if she was serious about being allowed to eat them... She said it rather loudly too.. I had already eaten a Freddo and a Caramello by then, but people were walking past the office so I hid the wrapper as now I wasn't convinced I was supposed to (but clearly I was). And later I felt like a pig too, as the Editor-in-Chief observed that I was doing a good job (Dee, I think her name is? Or is that the other lady..?), but DMAG's Nicole had helped out quite a bit. #.#
Quite a few people were scrummaging to the editor offices to get their sugar, while whining to each other about weight and New Year's resolutions. Kathy also ordered me to do my job faster/better ie. eat the chocolate. :)

I also got given a copy of Studio Ghibli's My Neighbours the Yamadas. I hope Stephen's happy. :P Ooh, here he is right now.

He's bored. He's singing "here we are now, entertain us". At least I'm not stupid and it's not contagious. And I'm not giving this computer up. He can plug the other one back in.

Unless he's taking it back to Lanville? *awaits reply*

He shakes his head (twice - appropriately), and laughing too lightly claims "no I'm not". But well, he's had about five hours of sleep in a .. couple of days and he looks as lanned-out as in Jonno's older photos.

I think these entries aren't that long, but I go and check them out ('View Blog' is such a handy little feature, don't you think? Imagining actually seeing the blog!) and they appear a tidbit lengthy.

And I've thought that Dorothy (my DMAG boss and its Editor) can read over my Extension 2 English major work short story and give pointers. Yay - outside pro help! (Now I can be just like everybody else. *cough* Heh.)

Today while working on my What's Going On thing, I became slightly distracted (I must confess) by the history of St. Patrick. Quite fascinating, to me anyway; the boy is enslaved to Irish pirates (arrr!) and ends up becoming the country's patron saint! Anyway, see the linkie linkie linkard (beware the music). Yes, I must must do that repet-repetition. It's like a song in my head. So there's a few good sites there.. The first link one tells you about his (possible) real name and those arrr! people. - http://www.manlwestss.eq.edu.au/webtrek/myweb10/st_patrick's_day.htm (You may have to copy the url as blogger currently doesn't like me.)

I'm currently conjointly reading 'Turning you into someone New' which is H/D funniness.. And on Fiction Press 'Addicted to You' - http://www.fictionpress.com/read.php?storyid=1881358 It's quite funny in parts, but I guess the personas and plot are a little addictive.

Ta,

Lenny.

(In two days I can tell you about the panda card I intend to make.)

Tomorrow brings love in the shape of things

2006-01-03T18:05:00.000+11:00

I'm in a daze... a daze of JOY!

Actually, not quite. Lack of sleep/lack of ability to sleep and then working for 8 hours today... @.@

The title is lyrics of 'Funny How Love Is' by, of course, Queen. I've had a honkering to listen to Queen II for a few days.. Or is it hankering?

The end of my day was dampened a bit by the fact I hadn't really finished the Studio Ghibli Quiz.. And I feel that what I did of it wasn't a crash-hot (+ crash dummies) job. But it's hard making up questions on things I know not much about. Then I realise that the kids won't remember 1984 either, so maybe it's all fine... *Wrath* at Madman for not having trailers... *sigh*

An alternative title for today could be 'Shinsong'. Actually, I should post again just so I can have it in large bold hovering over my text :P

I'm thinking of changing my ff.net penname to Shinsong. Only because it sounds like a knife. I'm going to check that it isn't taken. But I might end up just posting my good fics/finished ones under that name.. I could become the next... umm.. ? That one Switchknife was dying in her recs for.

Hmm.. well it seems there are a few Paper companies and a place name.. I'll just check ff.net itself.. W00t! Oh yes, sometimes I can be quite 133t. Poot.

Hmm... Oooh.. *pokes stomach, which now seems hungry (it has been making horrible noises all day). I almost crave a Sustain milk popper. But I'd actually need to exercise to get rid of these chicken arms and get buff. Sigh with my immaturity again.

I suppose as Shinsong is a Korean place name (ie. not being Japanese and meaning anything in particular), I have all rights to it. ^_^

Internet nearly didn't work for me.. I mean this only so far as my brother stole away the main computer (which still has not regained my trust since the rest of my family wore out the video card) and I didn't know which plugs to put in. Luckily my own ingenuity and Digger resourcefulness kicked in (ie. my eyes) to figure out the second plug that needed to go in; Stephen had only mentioned one.

*interpretive dance* to White Queen (As It Began).

Oh, Best Played Backwards Queen Song :-

I am to believe that Another One Bites the Dust takes it all away..

Now don't go right ahead and steal Shinsong and pen away with it, kiddies.

Adding images to this blog is still in experimentation, as I can't seem to manipulate the template with what I want.

2006-01-02T18:17:00.000+11:00

Lois from Hollywood Hotel

No Regrets

2006-01-02T17:21:00.000+11:00

I have already failed. *points to title*

Well, actually, no... Wait, yes.

I'm not regretting the fact that I stayed up last night and slept in today, but perhaps I will by the end of the holidays when I realise I still have most of my major works to do :)

I caught up a little on History Extension today.

Hmm.. I'm (re)reading Rousse' International Cuisine. Wanting to watch Silly Songs With Larry... Should be organising Sunday @ Seven... If I was Tegan, I would be telling her/me to just email Paul, the sooner the better... Sigh. Fine!

.

Done!

*grumbles something along the lines of 'hope you're happy'* ^_^

I've been investing my internet in finding some nice instrumental/classical/soundtrack -esque music. It's gooood.

Something that I'm aiming to do, and that I'd be doing in this blog, is making a list of my favourite Queen songs.. in categories. Such as; No. 1 Favourite, Best Long Song, Best Fun Song, Best Short Song, Best Makes-Me-Cry Song, Best Nonsensical Song, Best Sing-a-long Song... Etc.. And since Bohemian Rhapsody tops every category, it wins No. 1 Favourite and is excluded all elsewhere.

Hmm...

Best Long Queen Song (excluding Bohemian Rhapsody)
1. Innuendo
2. The Prophet's Song

Yes, maybe if I leave it to the top two or three, because otherwise I'll just get carried away... Oh! March of the Black Queen!!!

Outside World

2006-01-01T23:58:00.000+11:00

It's nearly tomorrow.. By the end of this post it will be. And then I can say that tomorrow I'm working. Yay for DMAG! I'm actually nervous about returning, though. Either because it's been so long, or there's a new worker, or maybe I just don't know what I'll be doing. And Dorothy (the Editor) hasn't replied to my email asking to change + lessen the dates I'm working...

Ahh well.

Tomorrow is tomorrow and tomorrow....

The thought of the outside world makes me ill. - Cybele's If You Are Prepared.

Actually, this is quite true. Part of me thought I was going to die the other night. The other part had already decided one of my friends was. We got through it. But I wasn't happy with it anyway. *sigh*

I love my new Refuel magazine Bible!! Ha ha! I can now further understand why James thinks it's so swanky.. (aside from the Girl Advice) I just want to pick it up and read! I'll take it on Friday night and let the others see what they think.. And ask Michael if that's the sort of thing he wants.. Hehhh... *coughs*

Oh dear. I had hoped to be sophisticated with this blog so I didn't get annoyed at myself later. Or think of the people who might read these entries...

Tomorrow is a day to pray for someone who has great influence in the world (Refuel tells me so)! :P

In the spirit of Movie!Filch,

Nighty night.

~ Lenscap

I was so Sixteen...

2005-12-30T17:14:00.000+11:00

I've just copied all of Daily Stuff and sent it off to Anthony. *deep sigh* I've just extracted a lot from myself again. I'm feeling that I might cry tonight or something.

Last Friday I slept - tonight I may weep - though slumber does seem quite a nice idea...

So while many a thing in Daily Stuff I reread and was struck with an epiphany by, I just summed up in my head how '16' I was at the beginning of the year. I look back on so many of the things I did and shake my head at myself and cover my (metaphorical) face with my (metaphorical) hands and be embarrassed. It's quite horrible, at times. Gahh... And working at Target as well - though I suppose (esp.) last January hosted some really good memories too.

I almost thought it was January already - but I've just been through about 3 years of my life again, so I feel I don't need to apologise for being confused.

I was thinking the other day about how a friend lied to me. And now, in my head, I speak up and make a bitter statement (slightly accusing) back. But this time it's not my usual Superiority winning over the top of her and shocking her - it's... being honest. And wondering why she wasn't.

We're so inclined to keep many things to ourselves. And I know in this blog I will, and other things I 'won't have time' to say - particularly as I'm keeping four other journals/process logs for school this year. And some of them are very much from the heart of me. Especially Extention 2 English. Oh boy...

*deep breath out*

And, well, now, because I can; I'm going to insert something here without permission of the authors. Partly because it makes me feel like crying, but it also makes me feel how I do when I listen to Bohemian Rhapsody and it feels like the first time I'm doing so. And we all know that the first time I listened to Queen was a very long time ago... *eyes flick up to beginning of the post* Properly listened to it, I mean. :

While We Tango Toward the Sky

by Jason and Anthony

Dance with me, only
Occupy my clumsy feet

Spin as I lead you around
And let me be giddy with abandon

The floor beneath us falls
As we fly higher and higher

Broken barriers below us
While we tango toward the sky

The Saga Continues

2005-12-28T21:55:00.000+11:00

Saw Narnia a couple of hours ago. It was quite fun and good, and I hope we can talk about the symbolism (that Rindi didn't know of) on Friday night.

So I went into town with my homys (the 'rents) and my bro, and I got a hard suitcase, shiny silver, and Sims University Expansion Pack. I was unable to find any iPod-esque earphones or cheaper ones that I liked. *shrug*

I also completely forgot to look for a by-the-tv notebook. I need something small, ringbound, but with many a page. Hmm.. Hit the newsagents soon, I think. Ahh..

I was thinking that I probably won't be shopping again for a little while, and then realise that if I see Dick and Jane (which I saw a DVD of the original(!) of today!) with Mikey, then we can pop in... Oh, well I could always buy the paper on Sunday... We'd better be going to church.

Hm.. I should research some Titus studies...

*goes back to Civ II and BoBrothers music*

The End

2005-12-28T11:47:00.000+11:00

This is my first post in my third blogger blog, and I think my fourth blog all together. My other one I post in non-regularly, and though I had read through it to check that it was ok for others to read, I decided not to embarrass myself by allowing them to. Or, rather, making it incredibly easy. *smirk*

So this is a public documentation of my life as I know it, and I'm starting at the end of December because I'd rather not be a 'new start', New Year's kind of ... gal. >.<

Oh, a stickler's note: I saw a sign yesterday advertising "Make your New Years order's today!". If you cannot tell what is wrong with this sentence, then I should have taken my black pen and scribbled over it in correction (it was already in red texta, so the true stickler could not have won out). Please please me by putting your apostrophes in the right place! Oh, such a nark am I. Actually, people don't really enjoy grammar and puncuation until there's something terrible wrong and they can appreciate it. But even when things are horribly incorrect, they're usually still understandable (eg. one of those fwds).

Anyway, today I intend to purchase Sims 2 University for under $40. I'll probably still get it if I can only find it for $39.95. Oh well.

Narnia tonight - yay!

Ta,

~Lentilworth. (Combining Lentil and Len(i)worth - yay!)