Friday, December 30, 2005
I was so Sixteen...
I've just copied all of Daily Stuff and sent it off to Anthony. *deep sigh* I've just extracted a lot from myself again. I'm feeling that I might cry tonight or something.
Last Friday I slept - tonight I may weep - though slumber does seem quite a nice idea...
So while many a thing in Daily Stuff I reread and was struck with an epiphany by, I just summed up in my head how '16' I was at the beginning of the year. I look back on so many of the things I did and shake my head at myself and cover my (metaphorical) face with my (metaphorical) hands and be embarrassed. It's quite horrible, at times. Gahh... And working at Target as well - though I suppose (esp.) last January hosted some really good memories too.
I almost thought it was January already - but I've just been through about 3 years of my life again, so I feel I don't need to apologise for being confused.
I was thinking the other day about how a friend lied to me. And now, in my head, I speak up and make a bitter statement (slightly accusing) back. But this time it's not my usual Superiority winning over the top of her and shocking her - it's... being honest. And wondering why she wasn't.
We're so inclined to keep many things to ourselves. And I know in this blog I will, and other things I 'won't have time' to say - particularly as I'm keeping four other journals/process logs for school this year. And some of them are very much from the heart of me. Especially Extention 2 English. Oh boy...
*deep breath out*
And, well, now, because I can; I'm going to insert something here without permission of the authors. Partly because it makes me feel like crying, but it also makes me feel how I do when I listen to Bohemian Rhapsody and it feels like the first time I'm doing so. And we all know that the first time I listened to Queen was a very long time ago... *eyes flick up to beginning of the post* Properly listened to it, I mean. :
While We Tango Toward the Sky
by Jason and Anthony
Dance with me, only
Occupy my clumsy feet
Spin as I lead you around
And let me be giddy with abandon
The floor beneath us falls
As we fly higher and higher
Broken barriers below us
While we tango toward the sky ¶ 5:14 PM
Last Friday I slept - tonight I may weep - though slumber does seem quite a nice idea...
So while many a thing in Daily Stuff I reread and was struck with an epiphany by, I just summed up in my head how '16' I was at the beginning of the year. I look back on so many of the things I did and shake my head at myself and cover my (metaphorical) face with my (metaphorical) hands and be embarrassed. It's quite horrible, at times. Gahh... And working at Target as well - though I suppose (esp.) last January hosted some really good memories too.
I almost thought it was January already - but I've just been through about 3 years of my life again, so I feel I don't need to apologise for being confused.
I was thinking the other day about how a friend lied to me. And now, in my head, I speak up and make a bitter statement (slightly accusing) back. But this time it's not my usual Superiority winning over the top of her and shocking her - it's... being honest. And wondering why she wasn't.
We're so inclined to keep many things to ourselves. And I know in this blog I will, and other things I 'won't have time' to say - particularly as I'm keeping four other journals/process logs for school this year. And some of them are very much from the heart of me. Especially Extention 2 English. Oh boy...
*deep breath out*
And, well, now, because I can; I'm going to insert something here without permission of the authors. Partly because it makes me feel like crying, but it also makes me feel how I do when I listen to Bohemian Rhapsody and it feels like the first time I'm doing so. And we all know that the first time I listened to Queen was a very long time ago... *eyes flick up to beginning of the post* Properly listened to it, I mean. :
While We Tango Toward the Sky
by Jason and Anthony
Dance with me, only
Occupy my clumsy feet
Spin as I lead you around
And let me be giddy with abandon
The floor beneath us falls
As we fly higher and higher
Broken barriers below us
While we tango toward the sky ¶ 5:14 PM
